Okay I just need to rant for a minute about pregnancy related things, mostly dollar tests. I'm only like CD9 or something so clearly not pregnant this month. I had a normal period that was actually maybe even heavier than normal and it was right on time. I knew I wasn't pregnant but I hear so many stories that sometimes it scares me into thinking that I could be and not know it. Plus there's that stupid show "I didn't know I was pregnant" which always scares you into thinking you could be the crazy person that doesn't know you're pregnant somehow. Well anyway, I was super nauseated today. It's probably from the antibiotic I'm taking for the sinus infection. I didn't think anything of it but wondered if I should take a test to confirm since I'm on so much medication right now. I just thought what if some freak thing happened and I was and I screwed it up because of these meds so I took a dollar test and what did it show? A line! It showing a effing line! I'm so sick of this! That's the 4th dollar test I've taken in the last 6 months that had a line. I didn't even look at it when I took it. I would be like 6 weeks or so if I was pregnant so I assumed something would come up right away and be dark and when I didn't see that I just left it sitting there in the bathroom and went about my day.
I meant to throw it away before DH got home and never mention it. Well when I got home he was asleep and he went into the bathroom and saw it. He didn't say anything about it but I went back in the bathroom later and noticed that he'd moved it and realized he must have seen it. I picked it up to throw it away and noticed the line. I showed it to him and said "did you see that? What a bunch of bs these tests are ridculous!" and he seemed to feel the need to tell me that if it was really positive the line would be darker by now. Like I'm a complete idiot who didn't know any better. Like I've become nothing more then a crazy woman who wants to be pregnant so bad I'm out of touch with reality or something. And this is just not the case. I got so mad! I was telling my mom about it and she started teasing me saying "well why did you take a test anyway it's not like you could be pregnant yet this month and if you were it wouldn't show up." And I kept telling her I knew I wasn't pregnant and there's no way I could be this month since I haven't even O'd yet and she just kept on and on. I asked her what her problem was and she said "Oh I'm just trying to aggravate you." I wanted to smack her. I mean REALLY? Yes it's so kind to aggravate someone going through this on purpose. I only told them about the stupid test because I was so pissed off to see a line when I know I'm not pregnant. I have no faith that when I am pregnant I'll know or that any test will be accurate. I just don't trust any of it anymore. And they have to go and make fun of me!
Sorry this rant was so incredibly long. If no one reads it I understand. I just don't understand why this process has to be made more and more difficult by the stupid piece of s### tests!!!!!!!!!!!!! They're going in the trash right now.