So today I went out and bought "Taking Charge of your fertility" and when I told DH about it tonight he said we needed to discuss that....so DH & I had a conversation about where we're at in our TTC journey. He thinks we need to hold off on trying for a few months.....and I hate to say that he's right. Here's our story.
I (finally) graduated in May with my teaching degree, and unfortunately with today's economy and the way teaching has been going, I haven't found a job this year. If I were to get pregnant this coming month, I'd be due early Sept - not the ideal time for a new teacher.....so more than likely, if I were to apply for a teaching position in July, I prob wouldn't get it. (b/c let's be real, what district is going to hire a new teacher, just to have to find a long-term sub while she's on maternity leave?!??!!) and DH doesn't want me to be "showing" when I go on interviews come July-Aug b/c again, no district is going to hire me. (yes I realize this is discrimination, but when you have an abundence of teachers that need jobs, its easy to get away with it) B/c yes I NEED a job!!!!
Which means the earliest I can get pregnant would be like May, so I'd only be 3-4 months, therefore prob wouldn't show. (then again, I have no idea as this would be my first pregnancy, but I'm not a petite woman)
I realize that May isn't that far away, but we've been trying already for 6 months, and another 5 months seems SOOOOO far away. DH wanted to talk about it more, but I couldn't w/o getting upset...and what else is there to talk about?!?!? Now he's trying to be all sweet, even picking up the book and reading it, just b/c he doesn't know how to handle the situation and/or what to say. Thanks for listening ladies.......