Beta tomorrow...POAS this morning

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Beta tomorrow...POAS this morning

I have to come into work tomorrow so I wanted to POAS before to prepare myself so I wouldnt be a mess at work. Anyway it was a stark white BFN...big sigh... I am crushed! At least I have today and some of tomorrow to prepare myself for that call, it is never easy getting that call even when you know it is a BFN. I can almost hear the pity in the nurses voice.

On a sadder note, that makes me feel guilty for wallowing in my own BS. Did you hear that Guilana has breast cancer? I lover her show and follow their IF journey. I am so sad for her and bill. She said in an interview that it was caught earlier and hopefully she will be fine.

Life?!?!?! WTF sometimes?!!

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:bigarmhug: I am so very sorry!

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"reb2591020" wrote:

Life?!?!?! WTF sometimes?!!

This!

I'm so sorry you got a BFN...how many DPO are you? I won't sit here and say "it may be too soon....blah blah blah" just curious. Maybe let the call go to voicemail and listen to it later. That way you can at least avoid the nurse.

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I'm so so sorry about your BFN. :bigarmhug: I agree with you it never gets easier getting a BFN. That is something in life that doesn't change over time.

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"Jenn0113" wrote:

This!

I'm so sorry you got a BFN...how many DPO are you? I won't sit here and say "it may be too soon....blah blah blah" just curious. Maybe let the call go to voicemail and listen to it later. That way you can at least avoid the nurse.

Thanks ladies...I know it sounds weird, but I almost feel like I can breathe again!! I just don't understand why it hasnt worked...I think that is one of the things that makes me the craziest about all this IF stuff. I hate not having answers or reasons.

Today I am 13dpo and 10dp3dt....

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I am so sorry. :bigarmhug:

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:bigarmhug: I am soo sorry.

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BFN was confirmed today!

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(((big hug)))

I'm so sorry this wasn't it. I'm sure it's extra hard when you have no reason why.

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:bighug: I'm so sorry. Take time to grieve and heal. :bighug:

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:bigarmhug: I am so sorry.

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My heart breaks for you. I am so sorry. May you be surrounded by love and peace.

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Thanks ladies...

Yesterday was not a good day. In addition to getting my BFN confirmed, I had to deal with these awful comments from the small amount of people who know about our issues and our IVF cycles. I actually had 2 of them say to me today (along the line of) awww, I am so sorry it didnt work...you guys would be such great parents and then one of them continued on to say, "it breaks my heart that you will never experience motherhood"

I really dislike people right now and I can't get over the why me...which I hate, I don't want to be that person because I have so many wonderful things in my life. But it does break my heart I will never be a mother and I will never hear a child, my child say I love you Mom!!

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I'm so sorry about what ppl have said to you. I can't believe some of the things that come out of ppl's mouths. When I hear of someone saying something so inappopriate I have to remind myself that they are probably uncomfortable and don't know what to say. But in a situation like that, it's best if they just keep their mouth shut.

The "why me's" is part of the grieving process. And don't be telling yourself you will never be a mother because crazier things have happened. I'll be praying for peace and healing for you. :bigarmhug:

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"reb2591020" wrote:

Thanks ladies...

Yesterday was not a good day. In addition to getting my BFN confirmed, I had to deal with these awful comments from the small amount of people who know about our issues and our IVF cycles. I actually had 2 of them say to me today (along the line of) awww, I am so sorry it didnt work...you guys would be such great parents and then one of them continued on to say, "it breaks my heart that you will never experience motherhood"

I really dislike people right now and I can't get over the why me...which I hate, I don't want to be that person because I have so many wonderful things in my life. But it does break my heart I will never be a mother and I will never hear a child, my child say I love you Mom!!

WTH?! That would totally upset me too.

I'm so sorry this new cycle didn't work out for you.

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I am so sad to hear that!

Don't let people get to you. Unfortunately they just don't know how to respond to a peson who has sufferd a loss, and call it what you want-that is exactly what we go through.

Know that we are all thinking of you :bigarmhug: