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What did everyone do today? I didn't really do to much. Usually I have violin practice on Tuesdays but my violin teacher was out of town today. Just as I was going to get ready for the day I got a phone call from the water meter reader ppl saying they couldn't read our water meeting. He asked if he could make an appt to come inside to take a look. Well since I was home I decided he could just come then. I was so frustrated by the time he left. He had to change the meter inside. I asked him if he wanted me to move anything out of his way and he said no. He did his thing and then said he "spilled" a little water. He offered to clean it up but I said I would because I don't like ppl in my house. He showed me his "spill" and it was a ton of water. It got on a couple things in the storage room. Then he went to check it from the outside and it still didn't work so he said he'd have to go get something else and come back. I waited for him for an hour and he never came back. I wanted to shower but didn't want to miss him if he came. I got the mess mopped up and the dehumidifier running in the storage closet. He still hasn't been back or if he has I've been gone.

I'm a hospice volunteer and I got assigned a pt a couple weeks ago. I finally made arrangements to stop by for a visit with him today.

I think when DH gets home from work I'm going to see if he wants to go for a walk. It is so nice here today. It has been really nice lately. I haven't been working out as much since Zumba was canceled yesterday d/t the studio getting new flooring so I feel like a nice walk would be good.

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That sounds like a crappy situation with the meter man. I hope that you are able to get it all taken care of soon. Were you able to go on that walk?
My afternoon was about as bad as I figured it would be. We had the shower for my co-worker (her 2nd in less than a year) and I didn't participate but couldn't take the afternoon off like I had wanted. So I had to sit at my desk w/ my headphones on and pretend to do work for about an hour and a half. I made it through about 45 mins and then I started crying uncontrollably. All of the what ifs and why's came rushing in. So I was in a funk for the rest of the afternoon. But DH was able to get off work earlier than he thought (there was some big issue and he thought he would have to work through the night) so he took me to this new Mexician restrurant. Nothing like some shrimp tacos to make things all better.

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Sorry you had a crappy afternoon. That's always a nice surprise to have DH get off work earlier expected.

We didn't go on the walk. DH got out of work late. When he got home he wanted to work on moving some rocks around our pond. So I watched him do that. I work this afternoon. I work 1/2 day a week for a plastic surgeon. It's not much but gives me something to do. I really like it because his wife works there also so we get to chat, plus I see a lot of interesting things. I told DH that I want to walk tonight when he gets home from work. He took tomorrow off so he had a short 3 day work week.

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Meg, ugh! How irritating about the water meter man. I would have been fuming. Is there a leak or some sort in the storage room? How did he spill that much water? I hope it's all taken care of now. Oooh, you guys have a pond? That's really neat! Do you guys have fish or turtles or anything in there? How cool that you play the violin! Biggrin

Jenni, ((HUGS)) Sorry, it sounds like you had a rough day yesterday. Yay for shrimp tacos! Biggrin There is a Mexican joint in our neighborhood that has THE best salsa ever. I call and order their chips and salsa to go pretty often...well, I used to anyway, before I started my new diet. I sure to miss it. Now I'm craving Mexican food...lol. I hope you're having a much better day today. Biggrin

AFM, I've had a rough few days as well. Nothing major....just very annoying is all.

So, I've been on BCPs for a little over 2 weeks now (seems a lot longer!) and about a week in I started getting cramps. I just ignored the cramps since I have a pretty high pain tolerance and figured it was from the bcps doing funky things with my body. Well, on Sat. I started spotting a little and I wasn't that concerned but on Sunday I was cramping pretty bad and the spotting was a bit heavier but not bad enough to call the nurse over. On Monday, I woke up with the worse pain in my uterus ever. I've never experienced pain like this before and the spotting turned into really light bleeding with some small clots. I called the nurse and she said it was perfectly normal and as long as I wasn't soaking through a pad an hour I was fine. Ugh! I put myself on bed rest and took some tylenol but the pain kept getting worse and the bleeding wouldn't slow down. On Tuesday, the cramps were still pretty horrendous and the bleeding was even heavier but I wasn't soaking through a pad an hour so again I just stayed in bed for the rest of the day. Yesterday was the heaviest in terms for the bleeding but the cramps eased up some. Though, I stayed in bed anyway as a precaution. Today, I'm still spotting and so far no cramps....the nurse said this was "breakthrough bleeding". I don't like it one bit....it's making me really nervous. I don't want this to ruin my upcoming cycle. I just have to get through today....I have an appt. with my RE and nurse tomorrow. I guess we're going to sign bunch of paperwork, get an u/s and learn how to give myself the shots. The pharmacy called and said my meds would be delivered tomorrow. I guess this is really happening.....I hope anyway. I hope AF stays away for another week or so. Sorry for my rant....

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Jina...that stinks the BCP did that to you. How are you feeling today? I remember when I was taking BCP for my IVF cycle I did have a lot of breakthrough bleeding and the nurse said it was normal. When I was on BCP a few months ago I bleed for practically 5 months straight. It was horrible. I finally quit taking them. I just thought my body needed to adjust to them so I have it the 3-6 months they say. I gave up at 5 months. Good luck at your appt today.

The water meter guy didn't turn off the water outside when he changed the meter so when he took off the old one water sprayed all over. Our pond isn't huge. It's a decorative type of pond that has about 4 levels to it. It was here when he bought the house. It's really nice but takes some work. We have lots of goldfish. They were busy over the winter since there are lots of little new ones. No turtles, some frogs and toads. We get tons of tadpoles in there. The other day I was out there and found 4 garter snakes. I'm not a fan of snakes but I can't kill them so we left them. I like to watch them, I just don't like it when they startle me. I don't know why snakes startle so much. It's not like I jump and scream when I see a rabbit or squirrel run across the lawn. It really freaks me out that last week I was reaching n the pond up to my armpits and behind all the rocks getting leaves out when there were probably snakes there.

I forgot to say that I love little local Mexican restauarants. Our's has the best margaritas and chips and salsa. Sometimes DH and I go there just for a margarita and chips and salsa. I'm not a margarita fan but I can always drink theirs.

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Meg, I'm feeling a little better today. Thank you for asking. Biggrin I'm still going to take it really easy until I see my RE tomorrow. I've just never heard of breakthrough bleeding before. Last time I was on BCP was 12 years ago! I know it's supposed to be normal but I can't help but feel a little nervous...you know? Wow, 5 months of bleeding?! That's horrible...:(. Ugh...I swear, I wish they had bcps for men. THAT would be awesome! Wink

Ugh! Stup!d meter guy. You'd think he'd remember to shut the water off first....hmm....?! Your pond sounds awesome! I bet it's very relaxing. I'm not a huge fan of snakes either....Hubby actually had one as a pet. It was given to him as a birthday present from his brother years ago. The snake actually passed away and I don't miss it one bit! You are one brave woman to dig around in your pond without being able to see. I would have been squealing the whole time...lol.

I have a quick question, my meds are supposed to be delivered tomorrow but my appointment is at 9 am. Do I have to have the meds with me? I know...probably a really dumb question. The nurse told me that I would get my first dose of Lupron at the appointment but if I don't have my meds with me....ugh...how does this work? lol

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ITA re: breakthrough bleeding. I was basically spotting for about a month. The RE said that as soon as you starting taking the injections, the estrogen should stop it. That's exciting that you are about to take your nursing class. It can be overwhelming but it will become old hat after a while. Good luck with everything!!

Meg: Your pond sounds delightful!! We are in desperate need of some landscaping in our yard but between some trees we had to cut down, the chimney replaced due to woodpecker holes, the bathroom/kitchen fiasco, and all the baby stuff, our finances have taken a hit recently. But that hasn't stopped me from dreaming!

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Jina...I wouldn't think you'd need to take your meds to the class. I'd maybe call just to double check. It'd be hard to get them there since a lot of them are refrigerated. Maybe they have lupron there they give to pts during their class. When I did mine they had samples to show us with.

Jenni...I was reading through your blog and it does sound like you've had a lot going on on the homefront. What a mess! Had the landscaping not been here when we moved in, we would've never done it. I'll have to take a pic once things start coming up and it looks better. I might have a pic from last year I can post. DH and I got married by our pond so it has good memories. He also proposed to me there. I was in a panic when he proposed to me since he had bought the house but hadn't closed on it yet. I thought we were going to get arrested for trespassing but he said he had talked to the owners.

What does everyone and their DH's do? Just thought this would be a way to get to know eachother better.

I'm an RN. I worked in a hospital on a med/surg unit. We have a very small hospital, 22 beds or so. After DH and I got married I quit my job to stay home. Now I work 1/2 day per week for the Plastic Surgeon. DH is a Family Practice Physician. DH and I met at the hospital where we both worked. At the time he was working in the ER. Currently he is the Medical Director at a Community Health Center. He resigned from that job and starting May 29 will go back to working full-time in rural ERs. That's what he was doing when I met him up until a year ago when he took over the Med. Director job.

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I love this!!!!
Meg - Sorry about the water meter man. I hate when I have to have other people do things in my house. They always seem to mess up something. However, I am little OCD so its hard not being in control of everything.
Jenni - I feel your pain Sad This weekend I am throwing a baby shower for my SIL. There will be 70 guests at this shower so I am little freaked out. I have never had a party for more than 25-30 people. Eeek! Plus I have to participate :puke2:
Jina - BCPs stinks! I hated taking them when I needed to and I am so happy my RE is not using them. I hope you feel better soon Smile

I need a little advice. But first I want to apologize because my story is so long. I had a little tiff few weeks ago with the above mentioned SIL and I am still not over it. I am trying really hard to look past this problem but it keeps coming back. Please let me know if I am out of line (DH thinks that I am right just overreacting a little.) So SIL is pg with her second. It's a girl and she was so happy because she gets to reuse a lot of things from her first DD. We started a little tradition with her last pregnancy where we go together for gender scan appointment. Well its sort of a pushed tradition because both of our DH's have demanding jobs and cannot take a lot of time off, but I like her so its a good tradition Smile So her gender scan was Dec. 20th, and while we were waiting to go in I told her about a little remodeling project I was planning to do and how I came up with an idea for a nursery for my future child(ren). So about a month ago we stopped by their house to drop off something and my BIL insisted I go see the nursery they just finished. Well, I about passed out. She used almost all of my ideas!!! The wood paneling, chair rail molding, white furniture and lavender color pallet. I held it together and did not say anything, but as soon as I got in the car I started ranting to my husband. Come to find out BIL told him what they were doing and DH told him that it sounded a lot like what I was wanting for a nursery if we were to have a girl. I could not believe she totally stole my idea. So next time they came over for a dinner I let them know that I was not happy about what they did (just to let you know I am very passive aggressive, and come off very pleasant even when I am angry or upset, sort of like Bree on Desperate Housewives if you ever saw that show.) Then they have a nerve to lie to me and tell me that BIL came up with the design!!! Well I could not take that so I called them out on it. They continued to lie so I decided to let it go, but SIL goes on to tell me that she does not even remember me talking about this because it was so long ago. Now I don't know what is worse the fact that she took my idea without care or that she is so self involved that she did not even try to remember what was obviously so important to me. Anyway I am still little upset over this but I am taking a high road and trying to forget. Also I am knitting a lavender blanket for the baby. DH thinks I am doing a right thing but I cannot tell him that it is still eating at me. So what do you think? Am I overreacting?

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I don't think you're over-reacting. I'd be just as mad. It would be kind of a coincidence if she didn't use your idea and you thought of the same idea. I'm sure it's something that is hard to get over but I think that is the only thing you can do. Kuddos to you for throwing her a baby shower. That would be so hard. Good luck this weekend!

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Can I jump in?

Meg I am jealous of your pond! DH is hoping to put a small pond in our yard one day but we're still trying to finish the inside as well as get the general landscaping (trees, grass, gardens, etc) done - we moved into our house 4 years ago. We live on a farm in Northern Alberta Biggrin

Jina, I didn't know that about the BCP either and I'm due to start them in a month or two. I'll keep that in mind for sure. I'm sorry you were in so much pain Sad

Yesterday I worked - I work part time as an Administrative Assistant in a local electrician company. I love it Smile My hubby was on nights, so my DS and I got to hang out together. I did a quick workout and caught up on some emails, etc. Today I am working again but am anxious for my evening - I am doing Weight Watchers and tonight is my weigh-in. I missed last week due to travelling to the city for our consultation appt. I am praying for a loss again.... Then, after that, I have my Zumba class which I haven't done since the start of the month. It's my therapy. I can have the worst day ever and go to Zumba and come out thinking I'm the best most fantastic person in the world LOL. I have always struggled with my weight and am so happy I found something that burns a ton of calories that is fun.

Hope everyone has a great day!
Harmony

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Here is a pic of our pond. It's a couple years old and it looks like some things hadn't grown in yet when it was taken. Behind the big bush on the right is a little bridge and the rest of the pond with a waterfall. This pic doesn't show it well.

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And for fun a pic of DH and I from this past weekend. We were at a Gala event. It's a fundraiser for the local private school. It's like an adult prom.

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The reason BCP cause breakthrough bleeding is because of the level of estrogen. If the level of estrogen in the pill is too low, then you'll bleed. I bled on the pill I was on a few months ago because it was a low dose estrogen pill. The one I just got put on is in the midrange for estrogen. I remembered being so worried when it happened to me during my IVF cycle because I was afraid my lining would be too thin.

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Yeah. DH joked yesterday and if it weren't for bad luck, we'd have no luck but I'm not too sure about that. We have 'annoying luck'. We are so blessed with a roof over our heads, money in the bank, food on the table, and people who love us. But it does seem to be a little more "difficult" for us than most. But it builds character right? Wink

I work for the State in Health and Human Services doing eligibility benefits. I basically read medical records all day and decide if people meet the criteria for the program. I was lucky enough to get the job about 6 months after graduating college and 8+ years later here we are. I have tried several times to find other jobs but can't. At this point I'm just waiting for a career change to "mom" Smile
DH does IT for the railroad (freight trains). He has a engineering degree in computer service but does a little more on the business side now. He works with goverment agencies (border and customs, TSA, Homeland Sercurity) and committees to make sure that the railroads are complying with all of the laws for trade. It's a great match for him and the benefits are amazing!

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Meg I must say the pond is beautiful and you look amazing!

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Meg, OMGosh, your pond and your back yard is BEAUTIFUL! Wow! I'm seriously speechless! How big is your property? Hehe....I'm jealous....we have a pretty small yard. Biggrin You have really beautiful eyes as well...what a beautiful couple! Thanks for sharing! Biggrin

Mimi, I would have been livid!! Wow....I don't even know what to say. I don't think you're over reacting at all. In fact, I think you're an amazing person to throw her a shower after the stunt she pulled. ((HUGS))

Harmony, I hope you have better luck with bcps. It's not fun for sure but hopefully they won't give you too much trouble. I'm glad you found a form or exercise that you love to do. Hehe....I wish I could find something that I enjoyed....sigh...I just really don't like working out. lol

Jenni, yes, I believe that we will be better mothers for going through so much more to have a child. Very true....at least we are fortunate enough to have IVF available to us? right? Biggrin

AFM, I am a sahw. I thought I would have been a sahm by now but it's taking a little longer to get there. Hubby is the Lead Senior Developer at 3M and also owns a software company. After I quit my job a few years ago I planned on going to culinary school but sadly this whole ttc and m/c business has taken over my life it seems. I no longer care about anything else....it makes me a little sad.

Thanks for the tips on the meds. I didn't know they had to be refrigerated. I wonder if I have to sign for them? I hope I'm here when the package arrives. I didn't know I'd be attending a class. For some reason I thought I would have a one on one with my nurse....eeek....a lot to learn!

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Mimi - I think you are handling this as well as anyone could! That is very sweet of you to knit the blanket. It's so hard to deal with people like that. I try really hard to make sure that I keep my hands clean in situations like that - KWIM? That I don't react and do something that gives them something to bring up against me. I'm sure it's of no benefit now but they have to live with what they have done and how they have acted. You can only hope that one day their consciences will get the better of them. Plus your room will be better because it will be for your baby Smile Good luck with the shower! Clearly you have wonderful ideas (or else she wouldn't have stolen them Wink ) and I'm sure it will go well.

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We own two lots. I'm not sure how big our yard is square footage wise. We really like where we live because it is in town but so quiet since we live on a culd-de-sac and have a creek and no houses in our backyard.

Jina...I'm sure you'll have to sign for your meds. I always did when they were delivered. I kept all of mine refrigerated except for the PIO. Double check when you have your med class tomorrow though. I know some of them don't need to be refrigerated but can be. I chose to keep them all in the fridge. I always though culinary arts looks fun. They have a program at our local community college and we eat occasionally at the restaurant they cook at. I don't think I'd like to go through the program though. It seems pretty strict. I'd be fun to just take a couple cooking classes, that'd be more up my alley.

I do Zumba also twice a week. I haven't done it this week since the studio is closed for the week. I also do yoga. I find I exercise better when I have a class I need to go to. I need the structure.

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Thank you for making me feel better about all this nursery drama. You are all right, there is no point crying over spilled milk Smile And Jenni I agree with you, I should probably take it as a compliment Biggrin

Meg and Harmony - I have been thinking about trying Zumba for a while now. I am just too cheap to pay for exercise so I have never joined a class. Would you recommend it? Would it be safe to do during ivf?

Jina - You'll have to sign for your meds. Do you know what carrier will deliver them? If you can find out I would call the carrier directly to see what time they usually deliver in your area.

Jenni and Jina - I am so envious of you. I will not be able to be sahm. DH owns couple of businesses and I am an accountant. Don't get me wrong DH does very well, he is a great businessman but I like the security of my job. Plus we depend on me to get health insurance.

What do you guys do in your "spare" time? I like photography, reading, knitting and redecorating my house. I do most of my redecorating myself, I am very much a DIY person. Currently I am reading a biography of Ava Gardner and knitting a blanket for my future niece. Oh and here is a photo I took few days ago:

DH bought some flowers and I loved the green/white combination Smile

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"Mimi83" wrote:

Jina - You'll have to sign for your meds. Do you know what carrier will deliver them? If you can find out I would call the carrier directly to see what time they usually deliver in your area.

What do you guys do in your "spare" time?

I never had to sign for my meds :shrug: Good luck with it all!

I'm so glad to "meet" another knitter!! I taught myself (actually DH did but that's a long story) how my junior year of college almost 10 years ago. I'm getting more adventurous in my patterns. My next goal is to learn how to make socks. I've heard it's super-easy but it's so intimidating for me. Other than that I love to read. I just finished the Hunger Games and am looking for my next book.

I can't wait to get home and see the pictures!! Our server here at work blocks almost everything (except p.org Wink )

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Mimi...that's a beautiful flower. You take great pics. Photography is something I'd like to get a little better at. I'd like to take some classes for it.

I've tried to teach myself to knit but I can never cast on. I had to have the library ladies help me when I was learning. I've tried teaching myself to crochet also. I'll do it for a while then stop. I've never made anything other than chains. I really have no goal now since we have made up our mind to not try for children anymore.

I like to read also. I need to start "The Hunger Games" but it's always checked out at the library. I just started "One Summer" by David Baldacci. During the spring/summer/fall months I like to work outside with our landscaping. During the summer we spend a lot of time at our lake cabin. Since it's getting nice out I'd like to get back into the habit of running.

I like Zumba. It's a workout without feeling like one. I'm not a huge dancer so it's a bit uncomfortable for me but no one in the class pays attention. I know some REs have different opinions on exercise during IVF. Some say don't do it because your ovaries are enlarged and it can cause a torsion and twist up on itself.

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Meg and Mimi - those pics are beautiful!!

Add me to the crowd re: photography. Our friend C (Statechick) is SUCH a great photographer. I'm hoping maybe when the time comes, she'll take some pics of our little one Wink

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I love to read - have about a dozen books "TO READ" (including the Hunger Games trilogy) on my shelf. I am also slowly getting into photography - have taken a few courses, have some books and just got a DSLR this winter. I haven't had much time to get out and practice, but I try at home.

I am on my last course for my Bachelor of Business degree which I do via distance learning. It's been tough to stay focused - but I'm almost done!

Zumba is so worth it for me - I don't smoke, I rarely drink and I don't have any expensive habits (yet! Photography is expensive!). I also have the Wii game which helps for the weeks I can't make it to class. It's pretty good.

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Well, I am back from my appointment. Good news is my ovaries and uterus look good and I start stimming tomorrow. RE decided to do endometrial biopsy. Ouch!!!! On a drive home I was thinking about my pg friends, you know the ones that did not have any IF problems. I thought of all the times I would run to the store to get saltines and ginger ale because they had MS, I thought of all the times I would clean their homes because they were tired, I thought of all the times I gave them free pedicures and foot massages because they could not reach their feet, I thought of all the food I cooked for them when they had cravings, and then I thought of myself. I thought about my HSG, my explorative laparoscopy, SIS, endometrial biopsy, injections, heartbreak and everything else we reproductively challenged ladies have/had to do. No one was there for me because I cannot even begin to tell them about this. I know they are talking about it and wondering what could be "wrong" with us, but they could never understand.
So with that said I want to thank every one of you from the bottom of my heart for giving your valuable time and knowledge, for your heartfelt consoling and reassurance and for giving me hope even when I feel like there is none left. THANK YOU!!!

Jenni - Oh I love knitting. My grandmother taught me when I was only 4 years old. Coincidentally she taught me how to read at that time too. So 2 of my favorite pastimes were passed on to me by my favorite grandmother. Kitting socks is easy, once you have that down you'll move on to gloves and hats Smile I know there is no need for gloves and hats here in the south but I still make a new pair every winter Biggrin

Photography was something I got into after visiting Hawaii. I had a simple digital camera on our trip, but once I developed some of those pictures I took my husband decided to surprise me with a DSLR. I just got a new model and few new lenses. I love to take pictures of my nieces, my dog, and nature.

I have a Wii, I'll get the Zumba game and let you know how it goes Smile

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Mimi...that is so nice of you to say those things about us. I do agree though that the women on here are amazing. I met my best friend on a different IF forum. We live 3 1/2 hrs apart and have met IRL 3 times. We email each other practically everyday.

I picked up a Canon DSLR at a garage sale last summer for cheap. It was a really good deal so I could pass it up. $75 which also included a nice lens. I played around with it a bit last summer taking outdoor pics but haven't done much with it since. I don't want to spend a lot of money on a newer camera until I feel comfortable with the one I have.

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Mimi - I'm sorry that you feel alone. It is hard, at least for me, when you give so much of yourself to others and don't see the same back. Please know that you have at least one person in NC rooting for you!!

I'm a tad envious of all of you with DSLR. I know that I'm not good with our plain digital so it doesn't make any sense at all to spend the $ for an upgrade. I'd rather have a smartphone Smile

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Jina - how did the class go yesterday? And your meds?

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Just a quick check in ladies....I'll be back later to to individual responses.

Jenni, thanks for checking up on me. Smile

The appointment didn't go as planned. We went in first thing this morning expecting to start Lupron today but during my u/s my RE found a cyst the size of a golf ball on my right ovary. So she wants me to keep taking bcps for an additional 11 days! So, instead of the 4 days I had left, now it's 15 days....~sigh~. I go back for another u/s in 11 days and she warned me that my cyst may still be there. My lining was very thin which she said was okay and my left ovary looked pretty good so that's good. I did get my meds via FedEx today but it looks like I won't even need it for at least another 11 days. Anyway, this really blows. I know 2 weeks isn't that long but I've had such bad luck with these bcps that it seems like an eternity. I guess I'm just really disappointed. I don't know why I'm feeling so down about this....I've been feeling very optimistic about everything and woke up in a wonderful mood and now I'm just moping around the house like a brat. I just can't seem to shake this foul attitude....

Despite the disappointing u/s, we still had a nice meeting with IVF nurses. I guess I have 2, one is my main nurse and the other is her back-up. We all got along great and I loved that they joked around with us and made us feel really comfortable. They were both very friendly and took their time explaining everything and showing us how to use the meds. The needles aren't as long or as big as I imagined so I guess that's a plus. So, we decided that Hubby will be responsible for giving me the injections. They taught him (and me) how to use the syringes. I guess I had some terrible facial expressions while they were explaining everything because the nurses were laughing at me and said that we could come back for another lesson right before we start the meds. We filled out and signed a whole bunch of paperwork which felt like we were buying a house or something..lol.

I guess the appointment wasn't a total bust but still very disappointing. I can't believe I'm getting this emotional already...I haven't even made it out of the bcp stage yet. Please send some shrinking cyst vibes my way....also, thanks for letting me rant.

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I'm so sorry that you have a cyst!! It's understandable that you are upset. It's expectation vs. reality. You had a certain timeline in your head and now that's out the window. I hope that the extra days fly by for you. Is there something you can do to distract yourself? Maybe something that involves heavy lifting that you won't be able to do in a few weeks? I'm glad that you had a good rapport with the nurses. Hang in there. You are so close!!

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That's a bummer about your cyst!! I can understand how disappointing that would be. Time drags by and then it comes time to do something and it's delayed. I'm glad your RE is having you wait though instead of just going on with your cycle. That's nice that you seem to have a good rapport with your nurses. That's a big thing because you will be so involved with them in the weeks to come. I had some real nasty, mean nurses at my first RE's and it didn't make a very fun experience. Nice nurses make a world of difference.

DH mowed the lawn today. It took him 3 hours because he pushed and bagged it all. It was the first mow of the season. I don't ever remember mowing long, green grass in March. We then went out to lunch at the Mexican restuarant. I took him out for an early Doctor's Day meal. It's really tomorrow but he is on-call so there's a chance he may not make it through a meal without being paged. We'll probably eat lunch at the hospital tomorrow.

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I'm sorry about the cyst Sad and having to be on BCP longer. I'm glad you're nurses were so awesome though - I know what you mean when the Dr's and nurses are like that and it makes a huge difference.

MOWED THE LAWN??? LOL.... we still have snow on the ground up here ....not as much anymore - we had a good downpour of rain last night but then it froze this morning so the roads were like skating rinks lol

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We had a very mild winter this year. Like hardly any snow. If it did snow it was melted within a couple days. Two winters ago it was such a harsh winter there were 14 snow days at the schools. I hate the freezing rain crap. This weekend it's supposed to be in the 80's which is very unusual. Usually we don't get that weather until June or July.

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"DancingNancy" wrote:

Mimi - I'm sorry that you feel alone. It is hard, at least for me, when you give so much of yourself to others and don't see the same back. Please know that you have at least one person in NC rooting for you!!

I'm a tad envious of all of you with DSLR. I know that I'm not good with our plain digital so it doesn't make any sense at all to spend the $ for an upgrade. I'd rather have a smartphone Smile

Lol, your original post was not whiny! Thank your rooting for me. Actually my brother lives in Sneads Ferry, NC. I am sure he would be rooting for me too, but he has no idea I am going thru this. His wife can't keep a secret so we never tell him anything. I could ask him not to tell her but I hate when people ask me not to share something with DH. I would never do that to him or anyone else Smile

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"meggyrn" wrote:

Mimi...that is so nice of you to say those things about us. I do agree though that the women on here are amazing. I met my best friend on a different IF forum. We live 3 1/2 hrs apart and have met IRL 3 times. We email each other practically everyday.

I picked up a Canon DSLR at a garage sale last summer for cheap. It was a really good deal so I could pass it up. $75 which also included a nice lens. I played around with it a bit last summer taking outdoor pics but haven't done much with it since. I don't want to spend a lot of money on a newer camera until I feel comfortable with the one I have.

It is amazing how some friendships are formed.
Play with your DSLR, definitely use more than auto setting. Before paying for a class I would recommend a Digital Photography book by Scott Kelby. Its a very good guide for amateur photographers. I learned a lot from it Smile

Oh and we have been mowing our lawn since mid February. Our Bermuda grass turned green end of January. Honestly this whole winter it never got completely yellow.

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Jina I am so sorry that you have a cyst! But like PPs said it is good they caught it early and are waiting for it to clear. I know that adding more waiting to this process sucks but once things start moving, it really goes fast. Having nice nurses is a big plus. I had a hard time with the nurse in my clinic, but I complained to her and she changed her tune. Now we are really good friends. She even gave me free meds last cycle Biggrin

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Oh my gosh. I missed a few days and we've got a 4 page chat going! I just read all the posts-apologize if I overlook anyone.
Meg-I love your yard! I am in healthcare also...I'm a orthopedic PT and work a few days a week. Nurses and PT's are always so in demand....it's nice!

Jina-so sorry to hear about the delay with starting stims. I too got very thrown off last cycle when meds were added, days changed. I totally understand how the change in plans affected your mood and everything. I guess, expect the unexpected. I hope the time goes fast for you. And I have bled through most of the BCP I've ever tried. It's so annoying.

Jenni-sorry about the shower at work. sounds like a really rough day for you. Glad you got some good food afterwards to cheer you up. I hope I didn't miss anything, but you are moving right along with stims, right? ER coming up pretty soon?

Mimi-I don't think you are over reacting about the room and SIL. And you are right for putting your feelings out there, and definitely taking the high road to let it go. I admire you for all you've done for your SIL and friends. You have really put others in front of you. I am glad you find support here. It is hard to find understanding in the real world. People that haven't been through this have no idea.

Harmony-hello! Glad you've joined in. I'll answer your question about the DHEA here, although I don't really know that much about it. The doctor said it's a hormone precursor that should help the follicles respond better to the drugs. I think he is operating on that I have low ovarian reserve based on my AMH and apparently not enough eggs last cycle.

AFM-Nothing new here. I've been busy with work and running the household. Finding lots of little things that need attention that I neglected while doing the IVF and on vacation. Just waiting for AF any day here to start the BCP. Not getting excited, nervous or anything about it. I am happy because I have plans on Sat to go for lunch and shopping with friends. Haven't done a girls outing in a long time. I rarely leave the family alone, actually, even for errands! So it will be fun.

I'll try to keep up here! Not used to this moving so fast.

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So who wants to come to NC and take me to my ER next week? ROFL We have told the clinic for about a month now that DH is home for at least 2 months EXCEPT next Tues and Wednes. Because I'm responding so well (big praise!), the ER is looking like - you guessed it - Tues or Wed of next week. My mom can't come up because she's helping my brother move and I've asked MIL but she's not the most...dependable of people (love her to death though). So, now I'm scrambling to figure out what I'm going to do. :shrug: Please don't get me wrong, I'm so excited that I am responding. This is definitely a wonderful problem to have. I just wish that I had a good friend here in town (my BFF lives in DC). Nothing is ever easy. And now, DH is getting super mad at me about it all. Grr.

Okay - rant over.

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Oh, that is a dilemma. I wish you were closer I'd so take you Smile But I cannot help getting excited for you Yahoo for responding so well Smile I'm sure that your DH is mad at the situation not you. This process cannot go smoothly, can it?
I have to share though. In 2007 I had an exploratory laparoscopy. DH was opening another business and had meetings day and night, BIL was out of town, parents were out of country, I could not get any of my friends to take me. So guess what, I took a taxi. The nurses at the hospital must have been sorry for me, because they offered to take me home instead of calling for taxi after discharge.

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Meg, wow a creek too? Now you're really making me jealous! lol Wink Yeah! A cooking class sounds like so much fun! I didn't even check to see if our local community college offered cooking classes....I should definitely check! Thanks for the idea. I've never actually attended a zumba class before but I do have the dvds. It was fun for a bit but I have this huge problem of getting bored with things and just giving up. I really wish I could find some form of exercise that I actually enjoy enough to hold my interest for more than a month or two.

Mimi, that's a beautiful picture! I think it's so cool that you're into DIYing. I'm a terrible crafter....I really suck...lol. I really enjoy cooking, reading, shopping and hiking, though, I don't get to hike very much anymore. I would love to get in to photography...Hubby bought me a DSLR, a few lenses and some photography books for my birthday last year and I just can't seem to get the hang of it. I'm not a picture taker anyway so it's really hard for me to remember to take the camera anywhere. I just use my iPhone to take pics...how sad is that? Sad I would love to learn how to knit as well but like I said...I suck at anything crafty...I also kill plants w/o fail.

You are such an amazing friend to be there for everyone while you silently go through so much heartache. I too am thankful for this board. No one knows that we're trying and no one knows about our losses (except MIL). It's been really difficult going through everything alone and pretending that everything is fine. Sitting through a baby shower while I had just m/c a few days before and attending a birthday party for a 2 yr. old while the mom was very pregnant with #2 right after finding out that I was having another m/c were two of the hardest things I've had to do. I'm just thankful that everyone thinks we don't want children, though, I have NO clue why they think that....they just do...~shrug~ Anyway, I know that your turn will come and hopefully all of your friends will rally around you and return the favor! Biggrin

Harmony, I love to read as well. You should totally read The Hunger Games....I promise that you won't be able to put them down! Yay for almost being done with school! Biggrin

Jenni, I've been meaning to re-paint the hall bathroom since last year. I even picked out the color and everything but then I had another m/c and haven't really thought about it since. I think this is the perfect time to finish that project once and for all. Now, only if I can get some energy! lol

Oh no! I wished I lived closer so I could take you! Is there any way your DH can cancel or delay his trip? Aaack! But, it IS good news that you're responding so well! ((HUGS))

Kara, I hope you have fun with your girlfriends. A night out sounds like a lot of fun! This thread is moving a bit fast for me too but that's a good thing, right? Biggrin

AFM, thank you everyone for your kind words and encouragement. You ladies are amazing! Smile I feel a little better today. I guess I didn't even think about the possibility of a cyst....it's my fault for being so optimistic. I'm going to be more guarded for sure from now on. My mind is drawing a blank right now...I know I had bunch of things I wanted to say but I can't seem to remember.....I'll be back later....lol.

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Good luck with the painting Jina. Kara , have fun with the ladies. Thanks for letting me vent. I really am getting excited about this cycle. It's just that nothing has been easy for us and this is just one more thing. DH is moving his flight Tuesday morning (at our expense that we really don't need to spend since $ is a little tight right now) so fingers crossed that it'll be Tuesday. If it's Wednesday, he has an appt to freeze his "sample" Monday afternoon. We really didn't want to have to do that but I guess that's what sperm banks do all the time right? I just need to work out the logistics of getting me home. But it will all work out. Warning hormone induced whine: This is why I really wish that I had a good friend in town. For my 30th birthday last summer I really wanted a surprise party (I've never had one but have planned several for others - it's like what you said Mimi about giving and not getting back) but DH told me that I didn't have enough friends for one Sad Being so shy, I never really had a lot of friends growing up and still don't to this day. I have my best friend in DC and a few aquintances at work but I long for some girlfriends. I have horrible self-esteem and that doesn't help things either. But maybe I'll get some 'mommy friends'.

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Jenni - We had to freeze a sample because we were afraid of going thru cycle and getting 0 sperm on ER day. Oh I really wish you were closer, we would be great friends. Also, because I would like to sit you DH down and give him a lesson on surprise birthday parties. It doesn't require a huge attendance Chris!!! Lol, I would, I'm not kidding Biggrin I have lots of "friends" but if I threw a stone the odds of hitting a true friend would be very slim. Hang in there hon! I too am hopping for some "mommy friends." :bigarmhug:

Kara - Lunch and shopping with the girls sounds great! Have ton of fun this weekend Smile

Jina - I'm happy you are feeling better today. I love to paint, there is something exhilarating about a really clean room for me ROFL I get excited about weird things Biggrin

I have a question. So today is stim day 2, so far I have done 2 lupron shots, 1 Bravelle/Menopur, and 1 dexamethasone. This am I am starting to feel my ovaries. I am still spotting so I don't know if this is AF cramps or if I'm already getting stimulated. What do you think?

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Thanks Mimi! I think that we would as well. I was sold when you talked about your grandmother. My Nana (non-na) is one of my most favorite people in the whole world! As for your question, that sounds about like me with the spotting and the cramps. The spotting stopped by day 4. I still get an occasional tug here and there. Maybe it's a good thing for you as well!!

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You ladies have been chatty this morning. I'm glad to see this board picking up!

Mimi...I'll have to check out that photography book. I do need to get out of using the manual setting and be a bit more adventerous in it. I would think the feeling you are having is your ovaries enlarging and producing eggs.

Kara...Have fun with your friends and shopping. That sounds like a fun day.

Jenni...It seems that's how things go. Things always happen on the days where it can't. I'm glad that you are responding so well. I remember trying to plan our cycles around DH's schedule or him trying to plan his schedule around the IVF cycles. With his job he has to be there. He can't call in sick since there is no other doc nearby to replace him. It was so stressful. During my 1st IVF cycle we were trying to plan DH's great-uncle's funeral around ER and ET. We weren't going to tell his family about IVF but kind of had to because some of them were getting frustrated with us trying to plan the funeral. It was not fun. We had to pick up his brother and sister from the airport right after ER. I hope you can find someone to go with you. That's sad that your DH said that about a party for you. I'm a person that wouldn't want a surprise party. I planned one for my DH's 40th bday. My BIL planned one for my sister's 30th bday and it was real small with just family and she enjoyed it.

Jina...glad you are feeling a bit better today. It's hard news to take when it's something you've been anticipating for so long. I like to paint but I don't like the clean up. I woudl rather just throw everything away when I'm done but DH likes to clean and keep it all. I guess if he wants to do the clean up I can't argue.

Children mentioned....

I, too, feel like I don't have many friends. Our town is very cliquey. I have a couple women I would consider friends but they are much older than me because I met them through my daughter's friends. It's hard for me to meet ppl my age. I was hoping I would have a baby and could meet ppl my age. They all meet in playgroup but my kids are too old for playgroup. I do have a friend that I met working. It's the PS wife that I work for. We live in the same town and carpool to work.

I'm sorry if I forgot anyone. I was reading all the posts on my phone and am now replying on my computer.

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I read an article once that said that adults tend to have a harder time making friends. I think there is even a blog about it. I'll have to research it and get back to you. Meg (or anyone else interested), have you heard of or read "Meditations from the Mat?" http://www.amazon.com/Meditations-Mat-Daily-Reflections-Path/dp/0385721544
It's one of my instructor's favorite books and she reads passages from it sometime. Last night she read one about "The Truth of what is" - it was all about how this is your circumstance right now and it's up to us to honor that. Very powerful stuff!

What's on tap for everyone this weekend? We have a wedding tomorrow night. My co-worker is getting married. She's Indian (country of) and he's a good ol' country boy. I've been helping her plan it for a while and can't wait to see it all come together. Other than that we don't have much going on. Our kitchen is still in shambles but DH is meeting w/ the contractor right now so here's hoping that it will get fixed in the next week or so (But not Tues or Wed Wink )

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I can beleive that adults have harder time making friends. The older women friends I have have so much drama. I can't handle drama. My DH doesn't have a lot of friends either. He calls most of his "acquaintences." I did hear that physicians have a hard time making friends and I think that is the case with me being "the doctor's wife." I think everyone is afraid I'm the sterotypical doctor's wife when I'm far from it. I'm your average Iowa raised girl and my DH is an average guy. Our new neighbor a couple years ago said she was always afraid to talk to me because my husband was a doctor.

Is your friend putting a lot of Indian culture into her wedding? That could be a fun wedding. We have a pretty laid back weekend. We are going to go to a home and garden show tomorrow. Last year when we went we decided to put geo-thermal in our house so we'll see if we leave there with any new ideas. We want to remodel our kitchen and bath so maybe we'll get ideas for that. Then tomorrow night we have a bbq bday party for a friend.

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I'm sorry. I'd be your friend Smile

"meggyrn" wrote:

Is your friend putting a lot of Indian culture into her wedding? That could be a fun wedding.

She is. They both are going to wear the traditional clothes. His grandmother is going to officiate the service. It's going to be a mix of both cultures. It's really sad though - her parents have basically disowned her because she is marrying him. Even more reason for us to go support her.

Have fun at the show. Hope you get lots of good ideas.

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That's too bad about your friend's family. Hopefully they'll come around some day and see how happy she is.

I just went through my 500+ pictures on my Canon DSLR camera from last summer and deleted lots of them. I got it down to 250 pics. I'm going to upload them to shutterfly and erase them all. I need to be better about erasing pics as I take them so this doesn't happen again. My SIL never erases pics. Even if they are bad pics or pics of nothing. She leaves them and always buys new memory cards. That's too expensive for me.

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Ok...I'm annoyed with photobucket. I was going to post some pics and I resized it all the way down to tiny and it still shows up huge. Am I doing something wrong?

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I have never used photobucket, I like Flickr. Here is one I took last week Smile

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Very pretty!! I'll try Flickr later.

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Ok. I'm going to do it this way by copy and pasting the URL from shutterfly so they aren't resized.

These are pics of our pond from last year. It was after DH and put down new mulch. We had a mulch mountain on our driveway. It was a lot of work but well worth it.



This is a little baby deer we had last year. The first picture is of it one morning. Later that night it got stuck in a small spot. DH had to pick it up and placed it in the ferns. Momma did come back to get it. It was probably only 2-3 days old.

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