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Kara...glad to "see" you here. Sorry you are feeling so cruddy. I guess it's a good reminder that you are pregnant. If you weren't having those symptoms you'd probably worry. I know that IVF and our IF struggles did strengthen our marriage in the end. It was just torterous going through it. If we can make it through that, then hopefully we can make it through anything.

How is everyone doing?!

I'm hanging in there. Had a HORRIBLE day emotionally yesterday. Feeling very raw after my session and DH has been in Canada since Sunday. I am working on expanding my social network since according to the therapist my current one "stinks". Big shocker there :ROFL: I am also trying to be more vocal about having my needs met by said network. We'll see how it goes.
My BFF gets ordained this weekend so DH and I are headed up to the mtns to attend the service. I haven't seen them since Nov (when she told me) so a tad nervous about seeing a huge belly but I'm so in love w/ the babe that's in there I hope it won't be too bad. I'm also seriously debating chopping my hair off - similar to Portia De Rossi's new do. I think I will wait until I hit 15lbs lost - shouldn't be too much longer since I lost 6lbs last week alone :)
Hope everyone is doing well. I think of y'all often. Sometimes it's too hard to come back here but I'm trying to work through that.

Glad to see you Jenni. Sorry therapy is so hard. I hope it is helping things though.

Sounds like you have some fun weekend plans. I guess I really don't know who Portia De Rossi is. That sounds like a good thing to do for yourself once you've met your goal wt. Good job on loosing 6 lbs last week.

DH is off for 3 weeks after he's done working tonight. We are headed up to our lake house during his time off. It's been pretty hot here the last couple days. I think I'll head to the pool a little later today.

Doing ok here. Just busy with work and moving and all that.

Jenni- I know what you mean about being nervous about seeing a big pregnant belly. I actually still avoid people who are further along in their pregnancy; still worried that this will all be taken away. I do think it is easier to deal with when you love the person. It is like being an aunt. I know it will mean a lot to your friend that you are there to celebrate with her.

I just had a long message typed out and lost it somehow. Grrrr...!!!!

Meg-Have a great time at the lake with your husband. Your lake house sounds so nice...I am a bit jealous every time you talk about it!

Jenni-sorry you are having such a hard time. I wish you the best in expanding your friend group and including some more supportive friends. I love the idea of a sassy new haircut! I'll look up Portia De Rossi's new look. I know you'll find the strength to go and support your friend this weekend, but I am sorry you are "facing" a pregnant belly, even though you love your friend and her baby. It's so unfair that you have to go through that. Thinking of you.

I'm kind of feeling worried about having shared about our infertility, surgery, losses, IVF, etc. with a friend. It was weird how we got to talking about it, over email since none of this friend group has known anything about it. Anyway, after that message, I never got a response. I wish I hadn't shared now. I'm not mad, but it feels awkward now she said nothing after I shared all this that has been so painful for me. I'm kind of worried I offended somehow now, or that it sounded really negative or something. I don't want to make a bigger deal of it and send another message, but I feel really weird about it.

My husband is very busy, working all the time with his new job, and I feel overworked, and a bit lonely, at home. He is not really happy working all the hours either. Not sure it's worth it. We'll see. But overall, all is well.

Tiffany...when is your move?

Kara...maybe your friend doesn't know how to respond so feels no response is the best until she can figure out what to say. Since she really has no experience with IF it may be overwhelming to her. But I do know what you mean about being worried when you got no response. I'm the same way if I say something and I don't hear back from that person. Hopefully she responds soon. When did your DH start a new job? Is he always going to be working a lot of hours?

They are packing us up next Thursday. We are going to do some repairs/cleaning over the weekend and then drive up Sunday. I am going to pay a friend to deal with the contractors who might still need to install the carpet.

Right now I am thinking it will take us 3 days because I don't want to keep a 3 year old in the car all day. I know there is a water park in Wichita, KS which is 6 hrs into our drive. Then we will spend the day/night in NW Iowa at my grandma's place. I am flying up there tomorrow to pick her up as she doesn't fly by herself (she could though...). A friend of mine who is a teacher is going with me. Mom works for an airline, and we are very lucky to be able to do that.

Then next week is going to be sorting, cleaning, donating...

Official move in day is July 2nd, but our stuff won't even start to arrive until July 5th.

Kara- I think it was great that you opened up to your friend about IF. All my friends have been fabulous so that is weird that she is just quiet. I would say "it's her, not you."

Meg - I think it is so awesome DH is off for three weeks. I hope you really get a chance to be together and have fun!

How is everyone doing?

Tiffany...good luck with your move.

We are home for a day from the lake to mow the lawn do a few things around our house. We are going back tomorrow which will be nice since it's supposed to be 100 degrees. I'm really trying to get in shape while we are at the lake since we really don't do much there. It's so relaxing so I have time to exercise. I'm always in the worst shape in the summer because I eat more, drink more and don't exercise. Summer is when I want to be in the best shape. My goal is to either run or cycle everyday. I've started the couch to 5K program and DH and I are doing that everyother day so we jog/walk around 2.5 miles on those days. On the off days we are cycling since there are really good bike paths around the lake. We've been riding about 7 miles. DH bought me a new Trek bike today. It's a really nice one. I'm sure I'll have it for the rest of my life. I was thinking today my goal for my 30th bday should be a ride a day of RAGBRAI since my bday is the same week. RAGBRAI is a bike ride that goes from the west side of Iowa to the east side of Iowa over the course of a week. I really don't have long to train since my bday is on July 23. It looks like the ride the day of my bday is 62 miles and the route the next day (which ends in a town closer to us) is 81 miles. I have a long ways to go it looks like. The total distance in the week is 471 miles. It's kind of a big party every night when you stop in the towns. My town hosted it a few years ago and we hosted a couple ppl to stay at our house.

Hope everyone is doing well. I may be MIA for a while since idk if I'll have internet or not.

Way to go Meg!! That sounds like a great goal. Good luck with it and KUP. Enjoy your time at the lake.

This past weekend was wonderful. Seeing my friend answer God's call for her was amazing. After the service we both just hugged each other and cried. It was so moving. Glad that her sister was there to capture it all on film. I'll try to blog about it this week (assuming some of y'all still read it ;) ). I finished up my sessions on Monday. I'm glad that I did it as I have gained a lot of perspective on things in my life that I need to work on - the biggest being my self-esteem. I didn't realize how much it affected my day-to-day life and my relationship with others. Plus my need for a better support system. I'm working on getting one in place before our next try next month (or at least 'fixing' the one we have now). Work has been not too bad. I set a few goals for myself and have been able to achieve them so that's rewarding. DH and I are still working out 4-5x a week at the gym. Mainly just in a holding pattern baby-wise but working on other things in our life.
Hope everyone is doing well. I do think of y'all often!!