Meg -I remembered that feeling. We kept my cycle on the DL for lots of reasons as well. I hope it goes well for you. It seemed like a lot of meds but I ended up having to order even more. Seemed crazy! Its exciting though. It seemed so much more real. Thinking about you as you embark on this cycle.
Mari- i think i got headaches with the progesterone. Of course, for me it might have been caffeine withdrawal. I think staying hydrated helped with a variety of progesterone related symptoms for me.
Thank you all for your kind words. If any of you are still here, ill let you know the results come october.
Meg-this cycle we didn't tell many people either. I felt last cycle the world knew, this time only close friends.
AFM-I'm in a funk today. Not in a good mood, have that "I don't think this worked feeling." I was doing really good then "bam" it just hit me. I'm having lunch with some coworkers so I'm hoping to clear my mind. I also feel much better today which is why I'm probably like this. I keep telling myself that I already went thru worst with the last cycle so I'm more prepared but it doesn't work. So todays feeling grumpy Marisol! Poor dh.......
I actually held on to that feeling of it didn't work. I didn't let it eat me up, but I decided to do what I could to make the best of it. That might sound crazy, but it helped me stay sane. Being hopeful was harder. I don't know if it will help you, but it helped me to realize - I did everything I could. And you have done absolutely everything you can do. I didn't let those "it didn't work" thoughts ruin my life - but since it was a real possibility, I decided to just go with it. Anyone I told about my cycle I said that if it works, we'll tell you - otherwise assume it didn't.
Unfortunately, things are up to chance now. This is probably around the time DH insisted we book that cruise we were thinking about. I don't think we needed to do anything that expensive or crazy, but I just needed something else to plan that was completely fertility-independent. I hope you can find something to distract yourself as well.
Anyway, if getting pregnant was reliant on being optimistic and not being grumpy, there is no way I would be pregnant now.
So, do what you need to do and think what you need to think and don't feel too guilty about any of it. It is a lot for you to go through. I just remember thinking my whole cycle, I am NEVER doing this again whether it works or not.
Thank you! I feel like sometimes I'm a pain in the A**, you know. I let out a good cry, and DH caught me. It felt so good though, I ended up feeling bad for him because he had this face like he was helpless. He seemed upset that I told him I didn't want to do it anymore. I know he doesn't want to give up like I do, and I know he hurts a lot because he sees me hurting.
I completely understand what you are saying and you are 100 percent correct and I thank you so much for always responding to me...all of you for always responding to me especially during these very tough times.
Big hugs Marisol! I hope that the next couple of days until the beta go by quickly and painlessly for you. I've got everything crossed for you!!
Wow you ladies have been chatty. That's great! I love to see this board so active.
Tiffany...hope you have a great trip and meet some nice ppl. I'll definatly have to check out that website. How do I get my "rollcall?" Do you get to pick out your nurse? My friend that just started her practice last fall has had a hard time finding a good nurse. She gets the nurses that have no other position in the clinic.
Jenni...Did you have a bday? Hope you had a good one. How have you been doing?
Kara...it's nice that you are able to just take the baby aspirin. I'm sure you'd do the injections but it's just one less thing (and expense) to have to worry about. I'm sure you'll never feel "quite relaxed". There is always something to worry about. Even after they are here.
Marisol...sorry you are having so many ups and downs. It's normal. It's so hard for husbands to watch us go through this because they have no clue how we feel. They want to do something to help but I think we are so moody that they don't know what to do. How are you doing today?
Meg...hope you have a fun weekend with your DH's bike race. Does he do a lot of racing? I got a new bike this summer so I've been riding more. I wish I was a runner. I'm trying though. I can't decide what I like better...running or biking. Biking is definatley easier for me than running. For my 30th bday DH and I rode 30 miles on our bikes. It was a huge accomplishment for me. I remembering getting that big box of meds delivered. It'd kill me not to be able to go through it right away. That was the first thing I did when I got it. Hope you've gotten some time to go through it.
We are enjoying the last few days before school starts. They go back on Wednesday. Our oldest DD starts middle school this year so I'm sure she's quite nervous. I try not to worry too much about it because that will add to her nervousness. It's a brand new middle school so that will be nice. She's going from a private small school to the public school so it will be much bigger with a lot more kids. We were at the lake and came home for a wedding last evening. We are headed back up in a bit until Monday. Summer went way too fast but I'm looking forward to school starting just to get back on a routine.
Meg- I'm going to say I'm okay because I have to be. Last night we went out to dinner and my belly go so swollen!! :confused: DH was like "whoa, that's a big belly." Today it's a tad bit swollen, but I'm sure it's the progesterone. I remember getting pretty swollen last cycle too. As far as any symptoms nothing really. I have had some nausea off and on but it goes away once I eat something.
I'm not looking forward to school starting this year because I feel like I didn't complete what I set out for yet! We start the 5th, so I've got a few more weeks. Starting a new school is tough for any kid, but I'm sure she will be just fine. :)
Got this in the morning... So scared!!! Please pray this bean sticks!!!!
That's a nice dark beautiful line! Congrats!