Ok. I'm going to do it this way by copy and pasting the URL from shutterfly so they aren't resized.
These are pics of our pond from last year. It was after DH and put down new mulch. We had a mulch mountain on our driveway. It was a lot of work but well worth it.
This is a little baby deer we had last year. The first picture is of it one morning. Later that night it got stuck in a small spot. DH had to pick it up and placed it in the ferns. Momma did come back to get it. It was probably only 2-3 days old.
Forgot y'all coming to NC, I'm coming to your house Meg!! Your yard looks so peaceful and beautiful. And I'm quite jealous of your and Mimi's photo abilities.
I really have no photo abilities. I am going to order that book that was recommended though. You're welcome here anytime! We get lots of deer through our yard. I don't mind them in the winter but in the summer they eat our plants so we spray them with some stinky stuff. Our neighbor feeds them so that's why they come through.
Mimi...Have you read the other volumes of the Digital Photography books? I found one on Amazon for around $13. I can get the boxed set with all 3 volumes on walmart.com for $38.77. Would you recommend getting the first one or just getting all 3 from the start?
First, Meg your pond is magnificent. I would love to sit in those chairs knitting or reading with big glass of sweat tea. We have a little creek running thru our property and DH wants to do something like this. I just might let him :) Oh that baby deer is so precious!
I have all 3 of those books, and every one is great. I recommend them highly, but if you prefer not to spend so much money at once then buy them one at the time. Sometimes they go on sale on amazon for 7-9 dollars.
Jenni, I hear you about being shy. I'm pretty shy too. Though, I used to not be....I used to be really outgoing but somehow as I get older, I'm less sure of myself...does that even make sense? Most of my friends are in Houston so I feel pretty lonely here in Austin. Hubby has friends here but he's always so busy with work that he rarely has time for them...it's kind of too bad. I do get along with his friends' gf and wives but the ones I got really close to have moved to different states! lol ~sigh~
I hope you have fun at the wedding tonight! It sounds like a lot of fun! :D
I'm keeping everything crossed for your upcoming ER!!! :D
Mimi, lol...I like newly painted rooms too. I love anything "new"....haha! I'm trying to muster up the energy to go buy some paint but I probably shouldn't start it this weekend anyway. Hubby's grandpa is visiting us this coming up week from California. I haven't seen him in years. I need to make sure the house is neat and tidy!
That is an amazing pic of the butterfly! Very pretty! Do you edit your pics too?
Meg, haha...I don't mind the clean up so much but apparently, according to my Hubby, I don't do a very good job cleaning the brushes and such afterward so why bother? :rolleyes: Hehe....throwing everything away after finishing sounds like a good idea to me! ;) How old are your kids? Are you planning to do another cycle of IVF? I'm sorry if I'm prying...don't mean to just want to get to know you better. :)
Ooooh, can I please come over and relax in your backyard? Pretty please? I love the pics....it looks so peaceful. I hate my backyard because we have no privacy. We're hoping to build or buy a bigger house next year and I would LOVE to build it on a piece of property big enough to actually have some privacy. I kind of doubt it'll happen though. Austin real estate is ridiculous and we just don't have the kind of money needed to buy a big piece of property in the city. Pooh...lol.
Children, preg, m/c mentioned.....
When DH and I got married he had 3 daughters from a previous marriage, they were 3, 4 and 5 at the time. His wife passed away very suddenly at the age of 32. After we got married I legally adopted his girls. I knew I always wanted to have a biological child of my own and I thought it would be something special DH and I could share. He had told me very early on in our dating that he had had a vasectomy. At the time I was ok with it. After some time I did do some research and realized he could get it reversed. we talked about that before we got engaged and he agreed to do so after we got married. About 6 months after we got married he had the reversal. I was so excited to actually start TTC. Months went by with no success. He did have sperm but not a ton. The surgeon said there was a possibility of an anti-sperm antibody which can happen with the reversal. After about 8 months of trying we decided to go see an RE thinking maybe there was something wrong with me since I did have a lot of pelvic pain. We were thinking endo. While we were there we did do an anti-sperm antibody test. We met with the RE and he started going over things with us and said we needed to do the antibody test on DH. We said we just did it, then he went to get the results. He came back in and said it came back positive and that's why we weren't getting pregnant and we needed to jump straight to IVF. He didn't do any workup on me even though that's really why we were there. He said it was so obvious that it was him. We talked about IVF and decided to do IUI with clomid first because then we at least tried that and it was much cheaper since our insurance covers nothing. Our first IUI was a bust because the RE was out of state when I O'd. I had told him that I O'd early on my own and he assured me that I wouldn't on Clomid, well I did. So we did 2 more failed IUI's. With DH's counts being low he had to drive to the RE and freeze a few samples each cycle. This RE was 2 hours away one way. After the 3 failed IUI's we decided to give IVF a try. Our first cycle of IVF was 3 years ago this month. I had 6 eggs retrieved, 2 fertilize which both arrested before transfer. We were devastated. We decided to try again so did our 2nd cycle in June of 2009. That cycle we had 6 eggs retrieved and 2 fertilize. They hung on until transfer so we transferred 1 blast and 1 morula. I did get pregnant that cycle. We went in for our 6 wk u/s and saw and heard the baby's hb. We had a trip planned for Vegas a few weeks later. I just didn't feel right and thought about getting an u/s done before we left but didn't because I had one scheduled for the day we got home. We went in for our 9 wk u/s thinking we were going to see the baby again only to find out the baby had passed. It was the worst day of my life. There was no hb. This was on a Thursday. Immediately the RE said we had to do a D&C because if I let it pass on my own I was at risk for hemmorhage. I was ok with the D&C because I didn't want to go through m/c'ing. He said we could do the D&C as early as the next morning. I couldn't do that and needed time to process it. We decided to do the D&C the following Monday (on DH's and I's 2nd anniversary). I wanted another u/s before the D&C just to make sure and the RE said "well it's pretty obvious it's gone." He did agree to one. I just needed to see that one last time for my own peace and comfort. There have been only two times in my life where I woke up and thought I was dreaming. The first time is the morning after I found out I was pregnant and the 2nd time the morning after I found out I m/c'd. We decided to do genetic testing on the baby. It came back that she had Turner's Syndrome. My RE left me a msg on my voicemail telling me the results of the testing. I was appalled by this. Still this RE had done no testing on me. When we asked him about POF/DOR he said it was pretty obvious because of my poor response. I decided to talk to my ob/gyn and she ordered an E2, FSH and AMH. DH and I decided to take some time off TTC and just try to let it happen on it's own. During that time we took supplements and I took DHEA. We also decided we needed to look for a new RE. After about 8 months we went for a consult to an RE 3 1/2 hrs away (one way). We really liked him and decided to try with him. We did our 3rd cycle in May 2010. With that cycle I had 12 eggs retrieved, don't remember how many were mature and fertilized though. We did a 3dt of one embie since that was all that was left. That cycle didn't result in pregnancy. When I was going through my last cycle my mom asked me how much more I was going to do. I was a mess with each cycle and my marriage and family was suffering. I told her I didn't know and I was going to keep going until I got pregnant. After I found out my last cycle had failed I had a sense of peace over me saying that I was done. I was blessed with 3 daughters. I needed to really focus on my family and marriage. I think had I done another cycle I would seriously be divorced. It's kind of like God knew I wouldn't be able to conceive children of my own so he brought DH and those 3 girls into my life for a reason. Now they are 9, 10 and almost 12. I honestly couldn't be more happier and I'm so glad I made the decision 2 years ago to be done.
Sorry that was so long. I kind of wondered if ppl knew my history. I can't get away from the IVF board and I'm here supporting you and rooting everyone on 100%.
Meg, oh wow! first, :bigarmhug:. Thank you so much for sharing your story...your story made me tear up. You are such an amazing woman, so strong to have gone through all that and still remain so positive. I am truly sorry about your loss and how difficult your ttc journey has been. How tragic about your DH's previous wife passing away so suddenly. It seems like it was fate for you guys to meet and fall in love. It really warms my heart and I think it's amazing that you adopted your daughters. I bet you are an amazing mom. I'm glad that you are at peace now and also really glad that you are here supporting and cheering everyone on. This board wouldn't be the same without you. :D
Thank you so much for sharing your story!! I totally agree that you are amazingly strong woman.
The wedding was interesting but a lot of fun. I'm not sure how to get pics on here but y'all can check out the blog to see some pictures. I go in tomorrow for my scan. We should get a final date for the ER. MIL has tentatively decided to come up to help. I'm still not 100% sure that she will but we'll see. I still need to have a back-up plan ;) DH and I have been "off" all weekend because we are both stressed about the coming week. I think that the wedding helped remind us to get our heads out of our tails and remember what's important. Hope everyone is doing well.
I seriously can't keep up! I'll try.....love your photography girls. That is a hobby I have dabbled in, as has my husband, but never seem to find the time to really invest in getting good at it. Thank you for the reminder of how rewarding it can be.
Also....knitters out there. I used to knit when I was younger, like in grade school! My grandmother taught me and I used to love it. My grandmother is still alive, but unfortunately has Alzheimers and doesn't recognize us anymore. Well, actually she recognized me as her MOTHER last time I visited! It is sad, but honestly I felt good about it because she knew me as someone she loved. Got off subject there. Anyway, I think I may try knitting again! What a good idea for the bedrest time after IVF.........
About being shy- I started out as EXTREMELY shy and it has improved with age. Middle school/high school were extremely hard because of how shy I was. In college, I started getting more self confidence and it got better as I got older, but it is still hard sometimes. I have learned from my more outgoing friends to go out on a limb sometimes and organize get-togethers, etc, and I've actually done it. We recently moved away from the area I grew up in to somewhere where we know nobody (so my DH could have better job advancement opportunity, which he really wants), but we have been so fortunate in that we have wonderful and very social neighbors.
Meg-I think I had known most of your story before, but thank you so much for taking the time to share the whole thing with us. I am sorry about your experience with the first RE, on a lot of levels. You are such a cornerstone for this board, thank you for sticking around here. My first IVF was a real reality check for me that pregnancy/having a child might not happen for me again, and I am looking to find that same peace that you describe after not being successful, I think as much as I am hoping for success. I am truly touched by your story and how life happens sometimes. You mentioned how God might have known of your difficulties and brought your DH and the girls into your life for that reason, but I am thinking they are equally blessed that you were brought into their lives. I am sure you are a wonderful mother to those girls and are steering them into wonderful young women.
Jenni-I am glad you had fun at the wedding. Good luck at your scan tomorrow, will check in for updates. I am glad your MIL can (hopefully) help. I understand your difficulties....I have been to almost all my appts alone. My mom went to my ET with me last time. She actually came in the procedure room and everything, which would have been extra cool if it had resulted in her grandchild. But I told my husband the doctor probably thinks I am making him up, and really don't have a husband! He is always busy and stressed with work. He also is really going through this for me.....he would stop this whole thing altogether the second I said I was done, and the truth is he is definitely less invested than me. I am going to call my mom tomorrow and see if I can fly her here again for the next IVF. I am nervous, but hopeful that she will come back for another try and to alleviate the stress on me. Anyway, I hope you can distract yourselves a little tomorrow and best of luck with everything this week.
Mimi-You poor girl for taking a taxi to/from your laparoscopy! Did you let the nurses drive you home? I couldn't wake up from the anesthesia for like 4-5 hours after my lap....I kept falling asleep again! But, again, I can so relate. Hey, if my mom can't make it for the ET this time around...that's not a bad idea.....
AFM-AF has arrived as of mid-day. Oddly, my LP was longer than usual-11 full days which is long for me without progesterone supplementation. Usually I barely make it to 10. I wonder if it could be the DHEA, or....shhhhhh the "superfoods" I've been taking. My RE said if I was taking any herbal supplements to stop, but do superfoods count? Wheatgrass, royal jelly? I am not actually doing IVF right now. Despite going through IVF, I am deep down a wholistic girl. I tried diet and acupuncture post-surgery for almost a year and started the superfoods after the first IVF failed. I'll stop once I start stims, but I think while on BCP, it can't hurt. Or maybe the longer LP is just leftover IVF drugs, who knows. Anyway, my usual hope of a miracle conception was dashed, but onto the next IVF! I was too late to talk to my doctor's office today, and I couldn't remember if I was to just start BCP or go in first, so I'll call Monday. I am determined to not let the anxiety get the best of me this time around.
Hope everyone is doing well, will try to keep up here......