Ouch, ouch, ouch! I was in a bad car accident 20 years ago and had severe whiplash. Every now and then my neck and shoulder go into spasms. This morning I rolled over and ouch! I could not move. 20 minutes of yelling for Sean - he was asleep on the couch.... we finally got to a walk-in clinic to see a doctor... Sean took the prescriptions to the pharmacy and then the pharmacist closed and left early!!!! So no meds, Sean was finally able to get some Tylenol #3s for me which is helping a bit but not as much as the muscle relaxant with the T3s would have been. Pharmacy not open until 9am and we have a 2 hour appointment with the boy tomorrow :( This will not be fun....
I am so over the drunken parties as well. My cousin is getting married next spring. First wedding in our family in awhile- going to be 300 people there and lots of drinking. And then drinking and driving.
My other cousin is getting married in Vegas next August. I think that will be more fun for us.
Im up and cant sleep - been happening a lot lately. I know mine is just nervousness about a lot of things. As they get resolved, the sleep will come.
Margaret- hope you get some relief soon
Margaret...how are you feeling today? That sounds painful. Was there not another pharmacy you could've gone to?
The wedding lacked a lot of class. I almost get embarrassed for the idiots there but they probably don't even care. I thought the same as you said Tiffany...all these ppl are drinking and how are they going to get home? I'm sure they drove. It's scary.
I didn't sleep well last night either. I went to bed and when I laid down had some reflux so I propped myself up in bed. I woke up every hour. Finally I decided to come out to the couch and sleep sitting up. I did that until 4:30 then went back to bed. I think part of the problem is when I can't sleep and when I have reflux I get anxious, then it makes my stomach worse. Not the first time that's happened.
We are having a cool down here this week. Supposed to be in the 60's all week. I start violin lessons today. I'll have to get my violin out and practice since it's been so long.
Margaret - sorry for the pain. Hope that you are feeling better today and that the appt went/goes well.
Tiffany - so glad that work continues to go well for you. May you continue to find your balance and that 'new normal'.
Meg - enjoy the cooler weather. Send it my way.
Sorry for all of the sleeplessness. And the anxiety that is causing it or as a result. Peace for everyone!
I'm back at work which is both a good thing and a bad thing. Good b/c I'm not sitting on the couch bored out of my gourd. Bad b/c well, it's work. The doubt is creeping in but I'm trying with all my might to quiet it. My beta is a week from Thursday but more than likely will POAS before then (perhaps end of the weekend/beginning of next week). Last time, I got a BFP about 9dpt. We'll see.
The same friend that sent me flowers on Thursday sent home with DH (he went to visit his grandpa in ICU and dropped some things off at their house) the most BEAUTIFUL gift - an Matilda Jane bag. So thoughtful.
Jenni...hopefully work will keep your mind occupied. Glad your friend is being so supportive.
I think it's going to rain today also. I've been having a lazy Monday so far.
The problem of going to another pharmacy was that the pharmacist had the prescription and since they closed early there was no way to get a copy.
Doing better today, the meds are making a difference.
Robbie's appointment went well. He will be in counselling about every 2 weeks. He is also going to be tested for ADD/ADHD (if anything I would suspect ADD, he is not hyper just can't sit still). He was suicidal in the summer so they are also going to do a consult with a child psychiatrist. The center he is going to is multi-disciplinary which is nice. He will be doing a combo of talk/play/art therapy.
Tonight is School Council first meeting (so it will be 2-2.5 hours) and I will be put forward as secretary this year. Last year I was vice-chair. School council is basically PTA.
Margaret...I was wondering if that was the issue with the pharmacy. I thought maybe the doc had called it in so you didn't have an actual script in hand. Glad you are feeling better today. Child mentioned...I'm sorry to hear about your son. How old is he? Sounds like you found a nice center for him. Congrats on becoming secretary. We don't have PTA in our schools in town, just a school board.
I got my Hep A shot today for our Nicaragua trip and holy heck that hurts like crap. It's much worse than a tetanus. I can tolerate shots well since I was having to give them to myself up to 5 times a day when doing IVF. DH is a big baby with shots (but admits it) and I gave his to him and he said it hurt. I thought he was over-exaggerating until I got mine. We'll have to get a booster in 6-12 months. We'll start our oral typhoid tonight. It's 4 pills taken everyother day.
I'm in the process of picking out paint colors for our family. It's really hard because the pillows I got have so many good colors in them so it's hard to choose what I like best. I'm leaning towards an orangish color called Aztec Fire.
Margaret - I am of the opinion we all need to do play/art therapy. Since I moved up here I have not been able to get back into ceramics... just don't have the time, but I know that sooner or later my mental health is going to require me to make time. I am sorry you are dealing with that with your son. Depression and ADHD both run in my family; I think my sister was depressed since she was 8. So, I am definitely on the lookout for things like that with our kid. That said, she hid it pretty well from my parents.
Meg - I cannot wait to pick out colors. But before we do that, I want to build my dreamhouse. And before we do that, we need to get settled in our life, find some land, make partner, etc. I hate shots and blood draws - so I am glad I am not having to do any of that right now. Some of my issues are from heartburn as well, I think my chest pain a few weeks ago may have actually been related to that. But I had no other symptoms at the time.
Jenni- hope you get a positve result from the POAS whenever you feel up to it.
As for the sleeplessness, I am handling it well. I have a lot of help at home and I know I can function during the day with very little sleep (byproduct of residency) so it does not make me anxious. Also, I know that being anxious about falling asleep makes falling asleep harder.
I dealt with depression about 6 years ago when I was going through my divorce. I was on anti-depressants for a couple years and have been pretty good without them. My pyschiatrist dx me with situational depression. I do think I was slipping into a depression during all my IVF and IF stuff. I just was consumed by everything I didn't care about my family or anything else. I still anxiety issues but I've noticed it's a lot better since I've been on BCP so that makes me think a lot of it was hormonal. I talked to my ob/gyn about getting some Ativan or something for those times where I am more anxious. He said he's not comfortable prescribing anything other than anti-depressants for anxiety which I completely understand. I'm not willing to go back on anti-depressants since I gained a ton of wt while on them. I didn't notice the wt. gain while I was on them but after I stopped taking them I lost a lot of wt. One mid-level I saw called it "pack it on Paxil." I think when my anxiety is increased it's for good reasons like having 6 extra ppl at our lakehouse for a week that don't help out at all and drink and lay on the couch cuz they drank too much while I have to pack 6 sack lunches for camp. That would increase anyone's anxiety I think. My sister was just recently dx as bipolar. She's had depression and behavior problems since she was real little. So now it's finding the right mix of meds to make her feel better. I feel bad for her because I think she feels worse now that she is on meds and knows she's bipolar than she did before the dx. Sorry that became a novel about anxiety, depression, etc.
It's so hard picking out colors for this room. I'll have to post before/after pics. I found a cool app that Sherwin Williams has. You can take a pic and select a color in the pic and it pics out a paint color and coordinating colors. Now we'll see if the color looks the same in the store as on my phone.
Tiffany...my DH was just talking about how he can get by without any sleep. He said his best sleep last night was from 6:00am to 6:52 am this morning. Then he left the hospital and drove home an hour and started call again until Wednesday 8am. He's kind of trained his body to need little sleep and now does have insomnia problems. Luckily he can still function.
I take spironolactone for my acne and I decided not to refill my script thinking maybe it really didn't do anything since my acne's been better since being on BCP. Well, I think it was helping because I'm noticing more pimples and my face feels more oily. So I called and am getting it filled now. It's nice to know that it is helping.
(child ment) Robbie is 7.
Personally I think infertility just adds to depression - if you weren't dealing with depression before then you will be with all the struggles. I think I had depression way before I was diagnosed at 26. My dad was of the opinion that depression was just a tool of the devil and was not chemical in nature... So I did not get any help until I was in uni.
The other issue with the pharmacy was the clinic closed at 6 so the doctor had left by the time he got back to the clinic - I was home passed out with a heating pad and Tylenol PMS...
Well, off to my meeting now.