Margaret...hope you start feeling better. Have you heard back from your RE? Weren't you sick also last week? Likelihood it's not related to your HSG but it's good to let your RE know.
My DH isn't actually working all 350 hrs of the month. If he had to be physically awake and at the hospital for 350 hrs it would kill him. Some days/nights are very busy and he gets no sleep and other times he sees no pts and gets sleep. He's pretty tired today just because of the busy weekend, driving and working. When he worked in the clinic he'd work Mon-Thurs from 7am-5am during the school year and Tues-Thurs 7a-7p during the summer. That job wasn't as physically exhausting as what he's doing now but it was more mentally exhausting. ER work is more "his thing."
We closed on our refinancing today. Then we signed the papers to start the process on our lake house.
Remember a few months ago when I had that lump on my breast I was all freaked out about? I did have it re-ultrasounded about 6 wks after my first u/s and it showed that the cyst was shrinking. The tech said what I was feeling was normal breast tissue and scanned my whole breast for abnormalities and everything looked normal. I've been noticing the past few weeks that it has gotten significantly smaller and is almost gone. What a relief! Even though I had 2 u/s to prove that it was a cyst I feel better that I can feel that it is shrinking. I have to remind myself that because of my breast aug. surgery all the tissue is distorted. Before I knew that the lump was normal breast tissue I did joke that maybe it was and I have so little of it that I don't know what it feels like.
I have to go later today and get a flu shot.
They weren't concerned, and chances are it is just a bug. I slept all morning and am feeling better.
Breast lumps are super scary. I had one when I was 29 and a lovely roommate of mine asked what I was going to do if they "chopped my breast off". Nice roommate, eh? Mine turned out to be a solid cyst but it took two mammograms to find that out. I shut up a room full of women who were waiting for their turns when I came in with tears streaming down my face. Turns out that my bio-mother has a lot of cysts in her breasts as well.
Glad they didn't think it was related to your HSG and that you are feeling better after some rest.
The lump freaked me out. I was for sure I was going to die of breast cancer. My DH kept reassuring it did not feel cancerous but I would google it and of course listen to google over him. Finally I had it u/s'd to put my mind at ease.
I worked 30+ hr shifts when I was a resident, with a wonderful little boy at home. I know that the floor miles I attained have helped make me a better doctor and I did manage to get quality time with my son - literally at the end of my 30 hr shift. It is hard to know which system is right - its more complicated than just lets give our doctors-in-training work-life balance. Now that I am on my own, it is crazy - seems like I learned nothing in residency with all the reading I have to do.
All of the internists here are booked solid so it has not been hard to find patients at all. I round in the hospital until 10am and I see my last patient at 3:30pm. At some point, it will be 4pm. None of the docs in my groups are even around past 4:30pm... it is why I picked this group. Of course, when I am running late - it can be hard to find a colleague to review a case with. And they all get and take 6 weeks of vacation per year. And they work 1:7 weekends at the most. I see a lot of complicated patients. And I take my time with them. And I like that I am able to do that right now. I also like the hospital work - I know it makes me a better internist. I am worried that I will get so booked that I won't be able to see my own follow ups like I would like to. I really don't want that to happen.
P.S. I get worried when one of my patients has a breast mass. I had a patient who had a breast surgeon who thought a breast mass was probably benign and I still wanted her to get it biopsied because I know that doctors (who are human) are not actually correct enough of the time for me to feel comfortable gambling on it. So she biopsied it... sure enough, benign. And also, so many women have cystic breasts - makes it near impossible to be sure there is nothing worrisome going on... so annoying. Why did God make us this way?
P.P.S. DH birthday is Thursday. DS and I went to go buy him some presents. It was a fun mommy-son date. Except for the crying and temper tantrums. I hope DH will like what we got him.
I think DH said it took him a couple years out of residency to really feel comfortable. It's hard to be able to experience everything with little time, even though residency is long but not long enough to learn everything. There is a lot to know about the body. I know I could never be a physician. Sounds like you chose the right group to work with.
I wish we could just look inside our bodies and know what was going on. I'm such a worrier about everything. If I have a funny looking pimple for a day I have to ask DH if it's skin cancer. I have become more conscious with being in the sun. I don't burn so used to not wear sunscreen in the sun. The past year or so I've been applying a low SPF sunscreen when I've been in the sun. I've seen too many older women with wrinkly, leather skin at the lake. It's disgusting. Plus, the fact the MIL was dx with a retinal melanoma has made me become more aware of melanoma and there is just more awareness out there in general. At the time when she was dx I was tanning in a tanning bed without wearing eye protection...not cool. I was a bit dumb.
Have you ever had a time when you are just irritable and annoyed? That's me tonight. I'm just stressing out about really stupid little stuff so everything is bothering me. Even down to the fact that I really need a haircut and can't wait until tomorrow because I get it cut. Plus, I'm really itchy and I think it's because I'm irritable which makes me more irritable. It was a have a beer with dinner kind of night for me.
My DH is so hard to shop for because he really doesn't want for anything. Last year for his bday and Christmas I would buy him work clothes but now that he wears scrubs all the time I don't have that as an option. My SIL drew names for our gift exchange. I feel really good about Christmas. DH and I have two of our SIL and we are going to get them Scentsy warmers. Children mentioned...the girls are going to be easy this year. Since we are going on the Disney cruise in May, that's what they are getting for Christmas. We'll also get them new pillows since DD2 was complaining how flat her pillow is. We try to get stuff they will use and stuff that we would need to buy them anyways. Last year they got a new soft blanket and flannel sheets for their beds. We wanted a new TV and surround sound in the basement so that was their "gift."
I'm having the hardest time figuring out what to have for dinner tomorrow night. I'm thinking a casserole of some sort but idk what. Last week I did so good with meal planning. I'm going to check out pinterest or allrecipes.com for some ideas.
We are having a pork loin roast (with some apple chipotle glaze), mashed sweet potatoes, corn casserole and a very decadent chocolate bundt cake for dessert. It won't be healthy, but we are having company over - and I want everything to taste good.
We are having a really nice day. Getting a lot done.
Oh I get annoyed and moody all the time. That is why I am in a high demand job. Oh, and that is also why I married a saint.
Tiffany...you dinner sounds yummy!! How can you work so much and prepare a fabulous sounding meal and host company? I hope your DH helps you out a lot.
It is so nice outside today here also. It's supposed to get cooler the next couple days. DH has been doing yard work. I would've been out helping him but I had my hair cut appt scheduled in the middle of the day and had to get ready for that. I did go out and run and increased my pace!
We are having chicken and noodle casserole tonight. I'm feeling better today.
Remember me? Sorry I have been MIA. I've read back but it's too much to respond to. I do hope y'all are doing well. I still think of you and pray for all of you. Things had been going really well for a while. I was starting to feel like I could possibly survive. Met a new friend for dinner. Joined a book club. My BFF and her 2 kids came into town so I got to meet the newest one. Pure bliss. But now today I'm a mess. It doesn't help that's been 6 months ago this week. DH broke down yesterday. My turn was today. Oh how I wish things had turned out differently. Last night didn't help either. THere was a neighborhood ladies night a few houses down. Out of the dozen women there, I was the ONLY one married w/o kids. Everyone knew at least one other person because of their kids. It was horrible. I felt like a 13 year old again stuck in the corner at gym class b/c no one would play with her. I'm so glad that I am making new friends but it's so hard to drive home or look out the window and see what feels like the entire neighborhood getting together without you. Oh well. Sorry to grip about it. Figured some of y'all might understand.
Jenni - I am so sorry that you are feeling alone. I know that feeling all to well. Hugs.
Tiffany - that dinner sounded amazing! I don't know how you do it.
I joined Girl Guides as a leader. I was a leader years ago but stopped. With not working my depression levels have been increasing and I have been hiding out in the house, not getting out at all. I figure this way I will be forced to get out at least once a week, plus training. When I suggested it Sean was all for me getting out and doing things.
Have any of you seen Looper? I think that is what we are going to see on our Saturday date night.
Jenni- :bighug: I definitely know how you are feeling. It really does feel like you are the outcast. Everyone ends up talking about their children and what they are up to and their problems. I smile and try to add something to the convo but I can't really contribute anything because I am not a mother. My friends get together without me, but it is because it is a "kid thing". I am so jealous of them sometimes. I know how you feel and it makes me sad that other people have to feel this way too. :grouphug: