Jenni...glad to see you back. I was just thinking about you yesterday. I'm so sorry things have been difficult the past few days. It's kind of like you move on and then you get broadsided with everything again. I'm glad you have been getting out and making some new friends. It's hard not having friends and it's hard to make new ones so I'm glad you are getting out there and meeting ppl. It's too bad that you have to feel outcasted at women gatherings. We all understand here. Keep coming back and chatting with us!
Margaret...Is Girl Guides like Girl Scouts? I saw you were selling cookies. I've never heard of Looper, so no, I haven't seen it.
I've felt so blah all day. I've had a headache which have become more frequent. Idk if I need to get my eyes checked again but it seems that when I have this certain type of headache I can't focus my eyes. It may just be a side effect of the certain ha I'm getting. I was so tired this morning when I woke up because I felt I was 1/2 awake all night. I feel like I could go to bed now and sleep until morning but I can't. I really think I've gotten so used to DH not sleeping in bed with me that I do sleep better without him. He teases me about it but I think it's true. It's kind of sad. He is away again tonight at work and just picked up a shift tomorrow night away from 11p-7a. We are going to a theatre tomorrow evening so he told them he couldn't start until 11pm. He never does an extra shift without me agreeing to it. But he's right, he might as well get paid well to sleep at a hospital. We ate lunch at the apple orchard today. I had been wanting to have lunch with him there since we couldn't do it last year with his work schedule. I also bought some apple dumplings but we won't be able to have those tonight. Kind of mean to make them without him here. We also stopped at a bathroom type shop to get some ideas for our bathroom remodel. With what we are wanting to do in the bathroom it's probably a good thing DH is picking up extra shifts. Have you seen the Kohler commercial with the spa type shower? That's kind of what we are wanting to do but maybe eliminate some of the shower heads. The more shower heads you have the more water you'll use obviously...like 21 gal/min. That's way too much water to use and if it's not something we are going to use all the time then we don't need it that fancy. We are going to meet with the plumber tomorrow to see if the price will really scare us away.
Yes, Girl Guides is the same thing as Girl Scouts.
I can't wait for morning. We bought pumpkin bagels and pumpkin cream cheese. Looking forward to that and some coffee with DH.
How is everyone doing today? Yesterday was so cold, windy and rainy. It felt like it could've snowed. DH and I went to a play at a community theatre last night that was really good. I think we are going to trade in our car for a new one. Out of the blue DH decided to call the dealership just to see what we'd have to pay for a trade in to upgrade to a new car. We have a 2010 Ford Focus so it'd be upgrading to a 2012. The deal is kind of too good to pass up. I honestly think they are giving us more on trade in than we paid for it since we got such a great deal when we bought it 2 years ago. DH put on a lot of miles driving 60 miles everyday when he worked in the clinic so it has about 26000 miles. The price was hard to beat to get a new car with no miles and a new warrenty. Children mentioned....this will eventually be the girls' car when they drive which will be in about 3 1/2 years...scary. What prompted DH to make the call is that our friend is going through a pretty nasty divorce. Her soon to be ex is "giving" her her car. Well along with that comes a hefty $800/month car payment which she can't afford. Funny though that the car is in his name. So we asked her if she'd be interested in our car and she's going to talk to her attorney today and she if she can hand over the keys to her ex and get into this smaller, cheaper more practical car. The dealer is willing to do an "in and out" swap so she'd paid what the dealer gives us for trade in and they'd do all the paperwork and we won't have to pay all that tax.
Kate and Jenni - You guy are right. You guys definitely should feel welcome here. It took FOREVER to conceive our first and I remember how that was. We were lucky and took advantage of that time to travel, but there is only so much you can do with that and IVF can completely take away any extra penny you would have for fun things. That is one reason infertility can be such a heartbreaking experience. Several of my friends IRL are trying to conceive their first now and the fact that they know what kind of conception troubles we had really has helped them through the experience. I am glad I opened up to them about our troubles long before they would ever have to go down this road.
I pray you both have babies in your arms soon. It took well more than 2 years to conceive our first and more than 2 years to conceive our second. And we were doing everything you are supposed to do. My husband and I were just reflecting on how so much of our life has been focused on that in the last few years and it is going to take time to heal from it. That may sound crazy, but its true. Even with success, it is still going to take time to heal. Seems like when you are going through infertility it is the only thing to focus on.
In unrelated news. We are making a turkey breast roast in the crock pot for dinner tonight. I also have some cranberry dressing. We will probably have egg noodles with butter as our side. Should be yummy!!!
I am still trying to make friends up here... will have to keep working on it.
Infertility is so consuming. That's all I focused on when going through IVF. We took a break just so I could regroup and focus on being a better wife and a better addition to the family. It's so hard to not let it consume you since you are so focused on the end result. Even though I've come to terms with my family as it is and not trying anymore, there are still things I need healing for. I still grieve the loss of my fertility and wonder why I had to be chosen to not concieve.
Tiffany...your meals always sound amazing. Tonight we are going to go to a soup supper. Otherwise, nothing much planned.
Meg - I honestly can't begin to understand what you have been through. I know about how trying the whole process is even with a "happy" result. I also know there is a limit to what people can put themselves through. Especially considering how far you had to travel just to go to doctors appointments.
Hope your soup dinner was ok. Our turkey was just ok... not sure why it wasn't great. Will have to see how the leftovers are.
(prev m/c ment) Yesterday, one year ago, was Bailey's due date. I knew last year would be difficult but I was not expecting it to be so hard this year.
I have been really frustrated lately with hearing different women complain about trying for 2, 3, 4 months....
I need to call my RE's office, I forget the date of my next appointment... I am very forgetful these days.
I have another job interview Monday morning.
Margaret...:bighug: So sorry that times have been difficult for you lately. It is frustrating to hear women complain about the length of time TTC when it really hasn't been long...they have no idea. What is your job interview for on Monday? Good luck!
Tiffany...sorry your turkey didn't turn out well. What was wrong with it? The soup dinner was really good. It was put on by a service organization my gpa is in. Children mentioned....I was able to go with my parents without any children. Oldest DD is at a weekend Halloween camp and the other two were at a friend's house. Then I hung out at my parent's house for a while after.
I am very fortunate to have 3 daughters even though the IVF didn't work. There are many couples who end up with no children. Even though I do have 3 daughters I missed out on a lot of their life and a lot of experiences and it hurts. I really don't like to hear about them as babies or the time before I was around because it makes me sad I missed out on that. I should want to hear it to learn about them before me, but everyone is different. I don't even like to look a pics. Makes me sound selfish. I never got to experience what pregnancy is like, giving birth, bringing home a newborn and that bond between a baby and it's mother. Even with the girls I do feel like there is a bond lacking. I am their mother and they are my children but I will never have the bond/connection. I do know how lucky I am to have them though.
I am so ready to get rid of these headaches. DH is thinking they are migranes/atypical migranes. When I get them I can't focus on having a conversation with someone and my eyes are just tired and I have a very strange smell/feeling in my nose and strange taste in my mouth. He recommended starting nortryptiline to see if that helps. It would also help my IBS symtpoms also. I'm really considering it but am hesitant because it's an anti-depressant. When I was on an anti-depressant before I gained wt so I'm scared of that but I know this is a different one. It would probably help a lot of symptoms I have. It may be worth it to get rid of these headaches. It's frustrating having a horrible headache everyday. It makes me very tired and unproductive. The only time I don't have one is right when I get up in the morning. I didn't have one on Thursday though.
I'm going out for lunch with a friend today for her bday. It will be nice to catch up. Another friend is coming also. We used to get together more often because we all were SAHM but they have now gone back to work so it's harder to get together.
Tiffany...are you enjoying your weekend after your long stretch of work? Hope you are relaxing and taking it easy.
No bad headache for me today!!! I'm hoping they just go away because I really don't want to have to take meds to prevent them. Lunch was fun today. I gave my friend a frozen pumpkin pie because she loves pumpkin pie. I couldn't compete with our other friend since she gave her a homemade pumpkin pie.