I'm not sure where to start with this so I'll just get to the point. It was bad. Really bad. The dr came in and said "This is a really rough conversation to have." Apparently we have 3 options and none of them are good. My DOR is getting worse and there's a worry that in a year or so I'll have no eggs left. In full disclosure, I am overweight but not morbidly so. Since we are out of explanations, the dr thinks my weight may be a large factor as to why we haven't gotten pregnant again. He suggested lap band only because it would be a quick way to lose a lot of weight (again since we don't have much time left). Both DH and I shot that down - only because it's not a good option for me for a myraid of reasons. He did say we were welcome to try another clinic but we would probably run into the same problems. Or we could use donor eggs. I'm not comfortable doing ANY of the options. As it stands now, we are going to take a 5-6 month break (and PRAY that a) ARC will still honor our package deal and b) most importantly - that my eggs are still "good"). During this time, DH and I both are going to try to lose 50 lbs or more and see if that helps any. I'm so scared and sad and angry and overwhelmed. The negative voices of "this is your fault, you're broken and a big fat cow" that I've tired SO hard to quiet have been so loud the 18 hours. I know in the end it's going to all work out but man, why does it have to be so hard?