decided to use my own eggs

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kadibug's picture
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decided to use my own eggs

Some of you may know me from the forum TTC 2+ years. I have low AMH (normal FSH and etc) and DH has low testosterone. We just started our IVF cycle. I am on the pill right now... and will start injections March 12th.

We decided to use my own eggs instead of a donor. I am nervous as hell. We can't afford to do anymore IVF's and we don't qualify for the shared risk plan due to my previous losses. RE said that I might be able to make 10 eggs and maybe get 5 embryos, but who knows how many of the embryos will be A's or B's. What if none of them are?

I never thought IVF would actually happen. I really thought miracles happened. I am nervous and I am afraid my TTC will be all over if/when IVF fail.

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Joined: 08/04/09
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:bigarmhug: I totally understand your fears. DH and I did not even think IVF was a possibility because he did not produce any sperm. After he lost a lot of weight RE insisted on one more SA and we were shocked to find out that we have 3 mil. His testosterone is low too. I am amazed there is nothing they can do about it Sad But the cost of IVF along with the uncertainty is very stressful.
What I try to do is just stay positive. I keep thinking that if it was not meant to be we wouldn't have any sperm now. Also people on this board are very supportive. I find that just expressing my fears here helps a lot. I think it is because I know everyone here understands me better than anyone of my friends or family.
Please KUP as much as you can. I hope your stay here is short and sweet Smile

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Joined: 08/30/11
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Welcome and congrats on the start of your IVF journey. It is a scary and nerve-racking process but we are here for you if you need anything. Big hugs to you and your DH for all that you have endured so far in this journey. Just to ease your fears, hopefully, I'm in a similar situation in that I too have DOR but normal levels. I didn't respond well to meds during our IUI tries but using a different protocol for IVF injectables, they were able to retrieve 16 eggs (RE had originally ball-parked 5-7). Again, this is just to let you know that this is a different experience and anything is possible. T&P with you. Keep us posted!

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Welcome! This board will be so helpful to you. Everyone here is so supportive. First off I'm so sorry for you losses and sorry you are having to go through this :bigarmhug: Remember that IVF and IF is a rollar coaster ride. One minute you'll be positive and think it worked, then the next you'll think it didn't. Lean on your husband for support (and us, too). There are been many women you've have gotten pregnant with poor quality embryos. Good luck!

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I just wanted to wish you luck and give you a ((HUG)).

I don't really have any words of wisdom since I haven't even made it to my first consult yet but I'm sending you lots of positive thoughts! Good luck!! Smile

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I just saw your update and wanted to wish you the best of luck! I have to second what Meg said, too. Poor quality embryos can lead to successful pregnancies. Are you using acupuncture?

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Best of luck to you! Keep us posted on how things are going.

kadibug's picture
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Thanks for your encouragement. I appreciate it. I got the run-down on the meds I'll take - TONS of Gonal-F, repronex (spelling?), lupron, and human growth hormone. The doc ball parks 10 eggs with me, hoping to get 5 embryos with at least 2 good ones. Seems like such little hope. I have two more weeks to decide whether or not to back out and use our donor.

I haven't done any acupuncture... I guess I don't believe it will help. Anyone know a good place to read its benefits?

Thanks again

meggyrn's picture
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All of those meds sound appropriate. I think the doctor has good expectations for you. Remember, your REs goal is to get one good quality embie. There are women here who did acupuncture. I never did it because it was too far of a drive for me and I also didn't think it'd benefit me.

JKfmAustin's picture
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I agree with Meg, all it takes it one good embryo. Good luck!!! Biggrin