Yeah- I've definitely had all of these trains of thought. I want to believe I'm pregnant for as long as possible, as you said Meg, but I also want to POAS because the not knowing will be killing me. The other thing I thought of is on the actual day of my beta, I will go early in the AM and the clinic usually calls with lab results early afternoon when I'm not with DH. For past tests, it didn't matter because it was just estradiol levels, but now the results are huge. I kind of want to POAS a the day before and day of my beta before I leave for work so I'm with DH and we can be together to either celebrate or prepare mentally for the sad reality of it not working. I don't want to be a big mess at work, especially alone, so it might be better for my mental state if we POAS that morning.
There are so many emotions of IVF. We should write a book on it. I can understand wanting to POAS right before so you know what news to expect. Lots of women have done that. My 3rd cycle I POAS part way through and then again on the morning of. I just knew that cycle didn't work out though so the news wasn't as hard for me. How have you been feeling? Are you back to work today?
Sounds like you transferred two good embryos! Thinking good thoughts for you. The wait is sooooo hard! I hope being back at work is keeping you busy now.
I POAS with my first IVF starting pretty early because I wanted to test out the trigger. Which I did, then no line ever reappeared after that. So I knew fully that my beta would be negative. With round 2, I knew when the trigger would be out so I didn't test early. I knew for sure I would test before my blood test though, because I knew I couldn't bear the nurse's phone call without knowing first myself. In the end, my doctor tested my HCG early, without me knowing, at 5DP5DT, which saved me from my decision of when to start POAS.
I think if you are going to be at work, alone, when you get the phone call, it would probably be a good idea to test at least that morning so you know what to expect. Hopefully it will be just early good news!
I hope you are busy and distracted with work, and feeling pretty good!