Big hugs! It's hard not to second guess and worry. Is there anything you can do to try to distract yourself for the next few days? As they say here in the south, "Try not to borrow trouble" T&Ps are with you!
11/11 - 1st Fresh IVF attempt BFN
02/12 - FET BFN
04/12 - 2nd Fresh IVF attempt BFP
4weeks 2 days
9/12 - 3rd Fresh IVF attempt BFN
7/13 - 4th Fresh IVF attempt BFP
8 weeks due to chromosonal issues - A boy, Joseph Samuel
How are you feeling today? It's very easy to let your emotions and this rollar coaster get the best of you during this. You have some much invested (not just financially) into this and you want it to work.
IVF #1-cancelled d/t embryos arresting before transfer (3/09)
IVF #2-BFP 9wks-7/30/09 (6/09)
IVF #3-BFN (5/10)
Well I had Meltdown number 1 this morning. I swear I'm not pregnant but then I think I am and I just go back and forth till I drive myself nuts. It really doesnt help being on vacation with nothing to do. I just finished cleaning the bathroom and the bedrooms and maybe later go to the mall for a bit.
I started the estrogen pill yesterday and had a KILLER headache!!! Poor DH was putting ice on my head at 3am. If they continue I will have to call the RE on Monday morning. I took some tylenol and so far I'm okay.
I went ahead and took an OPK this morning HUGE MISTAKE!!!!!!! AND IT WAS SNOWWHITE!! I think that is what thru me over the edge. I know Sophia had gotten a postive today at 5dpt3dt so I was hoping for the same results. I have decided to stick to the original plan and not test. So pretty much I'm a big mess today, a piece me hopes its pregnancy related but I'm really not hopeful. Sorry guys I know I've been a pain!! These are the days I wish I had my mom to talk to!
So sorry about your rough day. It is so, so difficult, and the waiting will kill you. You are still so early, please don't lose hope yet. I will say, that is the one negative about these boards....there are those few people who get really early BFP's and it gets us all thinking we are out if we don't get the same result. Everyone's bodies are different.
When I was about to start my second IVF, my counselor and I discussed the stress/anxiety of it all. She gave me some advice that helped me. She said, don't try to fight the anxiety and stress. Know it's coming, and just try to coexist with it. For some reason, that helped me a lot. It's like we feel like we shouldn't feel all these emotions. Going through IVF is a major stressful event, and an emotional rollercoaster with the hormones, waiting, hoping....everything. So no, you are not being a pain!!! I hope it is helpful to have this forum to vent in.
Hope your headaches improve, that sounds like no fun at all.
Going to the mall always cheers me up a bit. Treat yourself to something nice.
Man, I love that advice of "coexisting" with the stress. We have all been there and it sucks. I did not do a preg test until the day before my blood test. I needed to know before "getting the call" but I did ok waiting until the last minute and I am glad I did.
When is your official test?
Friday. I guess a lot closer than last week but still seems like forever. Yesterday evening I started cramping and having lower backache lasted a couple of hours then went away. Today I feel normal again so I'm thinking that's just progesterone. I won't test probably until the day off right before we leave maybe not at all (well for now) I'm just sooo terrified of seeing a negative.
Sophia, its okay. Seeing that BFN made me realize that I shouldn't test. I still dont feel a thing. I had a couple of pains on my right side yesterday but they were quick, today nothing as well. Oh well, I'm getting closer... I've googled and I was actually surprised there were more women that didn't feel a thing than there was that did so that was very reassuring!!