I having finally come back to this forum after a few months. DH and I had to take some time to be reclusive and make decisions. I also went to a therapist which was helpful.
Using my own eggs wasn't a good decision but at least we can say we tried. No regrets. During this processes we discovered that I have polyspermy. I have low quantity of eggs and low quality, the later being a surprise.
*MEGA doses of Gonal-f, Repronex, Saizen, Lurpon, DHEA, CoQ10
*17 eggs retrieved (miracle!), 12 matured, 6 fertilized, only 2 divided to 8 cells - the rest "arrested". Both embryos were transferred on 4/9, 3dt. 3dt was smart, as the rest of the embryos arrested by 4 post ER.
Not many symptoms - left ovary twinges but that could be from the OHSS I got from all the mega doses.
This is it - no FET for us! I need a miracle.