How's everyone doing?
I know that we have a few people (myself included) getting ready to start some procedures. How are things going? We have our FET nursing class on Monday morning after the biopsy. I'm so hoping and praying that there won't be too much of a delay pending the results. But we'll just have to wait and see. The nurse said that the timeframe is about 19 days after the meds are ordered is usually when the transfer is, assuming that a) the results from Monday are good and that b) at least one embryo makes it past the thaw and to 3 days. I'm pretty excited about this cycle, mainly because we are moving forward in the process.
In other news, my BFF told me last night (they are in town visiting) that she is expecting and due...when we would have been had our cycle worked out. I am 99.9999% super thrilled and excited for her. I'm a bit conflicted though because it does sting a little. Particularly since it was not "planned" per se and selfishly because she has been my biggest cheerleader during all of this. Plus this will be 2 living reminders of "what could have been" (our friends' little girl was born one month after our EDD for our chemical pregnancy that happened in 10/08). But babies are blessings no matter what.
Sorry for the novel. Hope that everyone is well.
I've been lurking, so much going on right now.
Glad to see everyone is doing well despite car accidents and other issues.
Jenni...Your feelings about your friend are completely understandable. It does hurt to hear other preg. announcements. You want to be happy for the person but it is hard. I'll admit that it still is hard for me even though I'm at peace with not trying again and having a baby. I still feel kind of cheated that I didn't get to experience everything that comes with pregnancy, childbirth and taking home a newborn baby. Obviously your friend knew about your IF struggles since she's been your cheerleader. How did she tell you and does she understand that it might be hard for you?
Jenni / Meg - it's rough...this whole TTC journey for some can be so easy but for others so difficult. :( :(
Jenni, fingers crossed for you for Monday. KUP...will send you tons of "super duper egg vibes".
She was so sweet about it. She waited until her DS (our Godson) was down for the night so that we could talk. She basically just blurted it out. Honestly, I have been praying for several months now that they would be able to have another child. Last summer she had some issues and there was a concern that it might be difficult for them. I really didn't want that for her (or anyone for that matter) so I have been specifically praying that when the time was right (God's time that is, obviously it wasn't their timing) that it would happen easily for her. I truly am excited for her and them. I know that this is the plan for their family. I am just starting to get worried about our plan and anxious/scared to find out what that is already. It's like we are still on the "Island of Infertility" and watching everyone else get "rescued". But who knows, maybe it'll be our time soon or maybe we need to just start building a Tiki Hut and bunker down :ROFL:
Originally Posted by meggyrn
And big hugs White Wolf. I'm sorry that all of this is happening all at once.
Hi everyone. Just want to pop in and say I'll do a better job responding to this thread tomorrow. I just hit a wall and need to go lie down. It's been a tiring day.
Hi again. Glad to hear things seem to be moving along for everyone's upcoming cycles. I think we're gearing up to start injections within about 2 weeks or so. I spoke with the doctor a few days ago after my hysteroscopy and he said we're pretty good to go but to schedule an appt next week. I'm assuming that's when I'll get specific instructions.
Jenni-I understand your feelings regarding your friend's happy announcement. It has nothing to do with you not being happy for her, it's just that it brings up all the feelings (always close to the surface for me) of sadness and frustration of not having success getting pregnant. I had a friend announce her pregnancy to me last weekend. I was having sort of a rough day to begin with (just really anxious about doing IVF, wondering if it's the right choice, picturing all kinds of worst case scenarios) and she called. She has been the best person for me to talk to for the last year. So concerned, caring and just wonderful. Really the only person I've been able to share everything with. She is a great friend, of course I am happy for her. But then she started talking about how she found out, told her husband, family, how she's been feeling, how a friend of ours reacted. All the joyful detail was absolutely too much for me to handle. I was able to continue our conversation just fine for the most part. But after I got off the phone, I had my worst day ever. It's not jealousy over someone else being pregnant, it's sadness and frustration over my situation and grieving that I will never again have sex, get a simple positive pregnancy test in my bathroom, excitedly tell family and pop out a baby a bit later. I just wish that were me...."surprise, I'm pregnant" without trying, the innocent knowledge that a positive test actually results in a baby, not having to be poked and prodded and operated on, never knowing what it feels like to have your hopes dashed month after month, being able to have as many babies as you want.
I am so completely grateful for my pregnancies/children that I have, but part of my emotional hang up over this whole thing is how I've become "broken" since then, how/why did it happen so fast, and all the memories I have of my experiences with having them. It's been so hard to accept that IVF is the only way.
The good thing that came out of my rock-bottom sad episode last weekend is that my husband got to share in it. He is usually not home when I get the monthly bad news and he has never witnessed me near as upset as I was. It's been hard for him to understand why I want another child so badly. I don't understand it myself, but now he definitely knows what I've been going through.
So, had a bit of a rough time, but feeling much, much better now. I also talked to my sister, who cut through all my infertility emotional issues and said that we've made the decision, be glad IVF exists as an alternative, and look ahead. So, we are moving forward and hopeful, but trying not to be too hopeful.
whitewolf-hear you on the financial stuff...I know I'll hit my out of pocket max for the year within the month! Time for us to lock down too.
jenni-will be waiting to hear how everything goes for you. keep us posted.
meggyrn-thank you for your insights and support. you are a great person for this board to have!