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    Unhappy I've lost hope.**update with HPT***

    Yesterday I spotted just the way I do right before AF. I was devastated cried for hours. I cried so much my eyes are swollen today. Yesterday afternoon I was cramping very strangely, it was almost like gas pain. I was getting back pain along with it, it was like my whole stomach was hurting and my lower abdomen felt very full. By the night time I had to run to the bathroom (sorry TMI) and had a horrible bout of diarrhea. When I finished up and I peed and when I wiped I was bleeding a little bit. It was pink but just like how it is with AF. It was mixed with CM. Today I feel fine again...no cramps so far no pain, no full feeling at all...just a headache but no spotting. I don't think this worked. I think I will test tomorrow just to have a heads up before I see the doctor I don't want to be blindsided by news.

    ***Ok so I tested at 5:30 this morning and instantly got the faintest of lines. I'm so scared to call this a BFP, first because it's so faint and I feel it shouldn't be. Also because I'm scared of being let down. The pic isn't too great sorry its the best I can do but believe me I have a pink line on a FRER...I"ve never ever evver had a line of a FRER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So scared cause back still hurts today* So what do u think...positive or negative???????




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    So sorry sweetie. Hope it is nothing.

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    Marisol- I agree with you, that sounds like AF and if it were me I would be worried and devastated too. I don't think I started having constipation until later and I remember that early pregnancy symptoms are exactly the same as AF symptoms. I hope it is just you being paranoid (I would be too!!). And I did exactly the same as you.. testing the night before just to avoid a nasty surprise. Anyway, we are here to support you.

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    I'm sorry you are feeling this way. Are you doing a progesterone supplement? If so, then you shouldn't get AF until you stop that. It's normal to spot in early pregnancy so maybe it's just a symptom of pregnancy. The diarrhea and cramps could be nerves/anxiety. I've found I get diarrhea (irritable bowel) when I get anxious. I hope you are surprised when you take your test.

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    Thanks ladies. DH had to have a little talk with me and told me that I needed to relax. I know he is right, but I don't know I just don't have a good feeling about this even though I haven't spotted since last night. Yes I'm taking the suppositories which can make you spot BUT it was the way I spotted that has me worried. AND it can cause back pain but again it's the kind of back pain I have that has me worried. I just finished telling him that depending on what we find out on Friday, I want to go on Vacation. I don't think I can go straight into another cycle without clearning my mind. I need to focus on my state of mind first before I attempt this again. If not I will totally loose it.
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    Big big hugs!! *Preg ment* I spotted a little this last time and was told that it's perfectly normal for some in the early stages. That being said, it could be anything. There's still hope. T&P's are with you. I think that a vacation sounds like a great idea. Be kind to yourself and take care of yourself.
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    I think a vacation sounds great. Also, I had some cramping in my early pregnancy - but I think it is wise to try to stay even-keeled about it. If it doesn't work this time, someday it will work. Also, now they know that you probably need higher doses of meds. I know this may sound defeatist- so sorry if I am making things worse - but it is how I got through my 2WW. Praying for you!! Big Hugs!

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    I had the same exact thing with a pregnancy once, so it could be a very good sign! I definitely see a line on the FRER. Hang in there.... hugs

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    Can't see the pic here at work but I'm sure it's a beautiful line. Congrats!! Enjoy this moment and focus on the joy you are feeling.
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    Jenni-that's what I'm trying to do but it's hard when the lines are so damn LIGHT! We are going thru so many emotions right now and trying not to get too excited. We want to be ready for the worst case scenario! I will KUP posted. Tested again and it was just so light but def. there and pink.
    *Marisol*

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