I've lost hope.**update with HPT***
Yesterday I spotted just the way I do right before AF. :( I was devastated cried for hours. I cried so much my eyes are swollen today. Yesterday afternoon I was cramping very strangely, it was almost like gas pain. I was getting back pain along with it, it was like my whole stomach was hurting and my lower abdomen felt very full. By the night time I had to run to the bathroom (sorry TMI) and had a horrible bout of diarrhea. When I finished up and I peed and when I wiped I was bleeding a little bit. It was pink but just like how it is with AF. It was mixed with CM. Today I feel fine again...no cramps so far no pain, no full feeling at all...just a headache but no spotting. I don't think this worked. :( I think I will test tomorrow just to have a heads up before I see the doctor I don't want to be blindsided by news.
***Ok so I tested at 5:30 this morning and instantly got the faintest of lines. I'm so scared to call this a BFP, first because it's so faint and I feel it shouldn't be. :( Also because I'm scared of being let down. The pic isn't too great sorry its the best I can do but believe me I have a pink line on a FRER...I"ve never ever evver had a line of a FRER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So scared cause back still hurts today* So what do u think...positive or negative???????