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bisksprout's picture
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This sucks...

I know AF is on her way... more red spotting and AF cramps. BFN on FRER. Called doc to see if I could go in today or tomorrow morning for blood work so I don't have to wait until Monday. At least if I know today/tomorrow I can have some fun over the weekend and have a couple drinks.

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meggyrn's picture
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I'm so so sorry Amanda. :bighug: I hope your doc lets you get your beta done early so you will know either way before the weekend.

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Oh Amanda...I am so sorry! I was really hoping this would be the cycle for you!! Hopefully the beta will prove otherwise, but I have been where you are and sometimes you just know. Huge hugs girl...

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I'm sorry that AF seems to be on her way. I hope they can get you in for a beta today, so you can have a drink or four this weekend. :bigarmhug:

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Going in for beta tomorrow morning. Should know results early tomorrow afternoon... I'm going to see if DH wants to do something fun tomorrow, just so we can get our mind off of things for a while.

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Glad you got an appointment. I am still holding out hope, but if it's bad news, at least you can have some wine with dinner tomorrow night... :goodluck:

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Hugs. I'm sorry AF seems to be coming. I hope you can plan something for you & DH to do this weekend.

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Good luck tomorrow. I hope you get some good news! :goodluck:

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Thanks ladies for all the support *HUGS* Beta was negative and AF has started Sad I always hate when they call and they sound so sad and say "unfortunately, I have bad news"... well DUH! I cut her off right there and said "yeah, I know. Period has started".

So, apparently my doc is presenting my case to the "committee" again because they just can't figure me out. That meeting is on Thursday... so they want me to call and set up an appt. with my doctor sometime after Thursday. Even though we probably won't do another cycle, it will be interesting to hear what they have to say.

I'll probably be MIA for a while... but I'll be back to check on all of you!

*HUGS*

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:bigarmhug: I'm so so sorry Amanda. Take time to yourself so you and DH can grieve. My RE said I could see him for a f/u visit to discuss things but we never went since we decided not to do another cycle. If you want to talk to someone about finding "peace" and "moving on" feel free to PM me. Enjoy a drink or two or three or four.

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So sorry Amanda! Big Hugs and I hope you are trying to have some fun this weekend.

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so sorry...your right, I hate that call too. You should ask if you have not had it done already, RPL (recurrent pregnancy loss) blood tests. My new RE did the panel on me and as I mentioned in another post, my body doesnt absorb folic acid, which is a gene mutation MTHFR. I am sure that is just a piece of my IF issues but at least it is something.

I hope I am not overstepping by making the suggestion... Huge hugs, my heart breaks for you and your husband. Take some time for yourselves and I hope you find peace.

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Amanda- (((big hug))) I'm so sorry this wasn't it. I there is no suitable consolation prize but I hope you were able to enjoy the weekend.

I'm also happy to hear your doc is presenting your case to the team. I hope they will be able to get to the bottom of things so you can finally get your BFP. For now, enjoy life. What has really helped me over the years is a gratitude journal- remember all of the blessings you already have and try to focus on that.

xo

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:bigarmhug: I am sorry to hear this Amanda! I just keep hoping and praying for you and your DH. I hope that presenting your case to the committe will provide with some hypotheses, but I also understand your reluctance to try another IVF.

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I'm so sorry Amanda.

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Thank you ladies. I'm anxious to hear what they have to say after Thursday's meeting. I'm trying to schedule an appt. with my RE on Friday morning... yes, I'm a little impatient Smile

Meg: I will definitely PM you... right now I'm still just trying to process, but I will be in touch later *HUGS*

Breen & bluelotus: *HUGS* Thank you!

Rachel: you are definitely not overstepping... I know they did a ton of blood work before my 4th round, genetic testing and what not. Not sure if they did the blood work you are suggesting, but I'm definitely going to bring it up. I'm also going to bring up PGD and I've been doing research on other things... so I'm going to see what they suggest. I might also start looking at other clinics, but right now we just can't do another cycle... but you never know what will happen months (or even years) from now. Thankfully, I'm only 34 so I do have a little time.

Melanie: Thanks for thinking of me Smile *HUGS*

I'll keep everyone posted once I talk to my RE. It's just so frustrating Sad

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Hugs. I was so hopeful for you. I hope you get some answers on Friday.
Carolyn

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Oh Amanda, I'm so sorry. My heart breaks for you b/c I know you've been trying so long. I'm a pm away if you need to talk

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I am so sorry Amanda - my results also came back negative and I was crushed. I burst out crying in the clinic when the nurse told me and couldn't control myself all the way home. I was feeling positive for you too Sad

I know what you're going through and am feeling it too - am also 34 so I feel we're at a very similar place. If you need to chat - let me know.

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I'm sorry this has been such a long and trying process for you. I hope you get some helpful info at your next appt.

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I have an appt. set for Tuesday at 11:30. I'll update you when I get back.

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Hope you get some answers!!

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Amanda, a little late but I am so sorry! :bighug: I've been thinking of you while I was out of town and I hope your RE can figure something out.