I'm not feeling much better since last week (and the 2 hrs on Wednesday that DH spent telling me that I'm such a negative person and I need to snap out of it and that I'm running all of our friends off with my negativity didn't help either). I looked into counseling but none of it is covered by insurance and the flipping woodpecker is back so any leftover $ (aside from DH's "toy fund") is going towards home repairs. So in an effort to not spread my ickiness, I'm going to take a little break from here and hope that Santa brings me a new attitude for Christmas - oh yeah, I don't get any presents this year. Hope that everyone has a wonderful holiday and good luck to everyone awaiting transfers.
11/11 - 1st Fresh IVF attempt BFN
02/12 - FET BFN
04/12 - 2nd Fresh IVF attempt BFP
4weeks 2 days
9/12 - 3rd Fresh IVF attempt BFN
7/13 - 4th Fresh IVF attempt BFP
8 weeks due to chromosonal issues - A boy, Joseph Samuel
I completely understand ... and regardless of what anyone says - its normal and you are not being negative. Its a hard thing to deal with and no one, even the DH's of infertility dont know... in a book I read the author said regardless of what the reason for infertility (even a male factor), its always the woman's problem to bear as they have to endure all the medical appts, emotional roller coasters, etc. While I have no advice to give you, other than to try to keep your head up.... know that if you ever need to chat, we are here!!
We'll miss you around here but I completly understand about needing a break. Hope you have a great Christmas!
IVF #1-cancelled d/t embryos arresting before transfer (3/09)
IVF #2-BFP 9wks-7/30/09 (6/09)
IVF #3-BFN (5/10)
I had to go away for over a year myself to free my mind from it all. Hopefully, you will have a peaceful holiday! See you back soon!!
The twins are here! 7/17/12 @34.5 weeks
Henry 5 lbs 4 oz AND Annabelle 6 lbs 4 oz
Big Brother Bennett 6/9/9
You will be missed. Please don't leave if you think we are bothered by how your feeling and saying. We totally understand the negativity. If your leaving just because u need a break then that's understandable.
Don't feel like you can't vent your frustrations here. That's one of the values of this board. We'll be here for you when you decide to return. May you have a peaceful and blessed holiday season!