The last few days have been a horrible rollercoaster!
First off, Monday started great. I got my final paper mark back for my final course - 90%! So, I was thrilled! Then, the pharmacy called and shipped out my drugs that day, so that was exciting too. I got a run in Monday afternoon and felt awesome!
Then Monday night, hubby went to work and my 2.5 year old had the most horrible bed time - he screamed and cried that he didn't want to be in his room. Finally got him down at 10 pm - 2 hours past his normal bed time. Tuesday I checked the tracking on my drugs, but they ended up being delayed because the transfer was missed - so I started to panick since I needed them to start injections Thursday morning - which means I wanted to be able to talk to the pharmasict today about them. I was a mess yesterday afternoon - even after a lunch time run. Then last night, my toddler had so much of a hard time that I ended up having a meltdown right with him. We sat in the rocking chair, both of us bawling at 11 pm last night. I don't know if he can sense my anxiety lately or something is wrong or what but it's stressing me out way more.
Anyways, today my drugs arrived and I was able to discuss them with my pharmasict and "learn" how to give the injections to myself... I am VERY nervous but excited a bit to get started. I am so wound up that I don't know if I just want to stress eat or run, run, run... thank goodness Zumba is tonight!
Sorry, just needed to vent and get it all out. I do my first shot tomorrow at 8 am and am super duper, almost wanna puke nervous. It's hard to believe that my son and I will be driving to the city in a week and starting our week away from hubby/dad. I hope whatever is bugging my little one goes away - I hate to see him so upset when I am not really feeling strong enough to handle it in a smart way. Thankfully we are staying with my SIL and BIL and they have 3 kids to keep my guy busy and happy.
Did I mention I am really really nervous?????
I seriously think it is the emotions of the entire situation that is getting to you. I am at a milder level...my initial appointment is next week to find out when we will start with IVF - so I can relate
I dont have any advice, but wishing you loads and loads of
I have been an emotional mess since IVF started, and now its' even worse on the TWW!! I even got up this morning walked to the coffee shop and had myself a bagel with cream cheese and coffee. It is very hard to stay grounded while doing this...just try your best!
How are you feeling today?
It's completly normal for you to be this nervous. I'm sure we all were with our first cycle and even with cycles after. You are doing a big thing and it's kind of a big deal. Feel free to vent away. That's what we are all here for.
IVF #1-cancelled d/t embryos arresting before transfer (3/09)
IVF #2-BFP 9wks-7/30/09 (6/09)
IVF #3-BFN (5/10)
*hugehugs* When it finally time to start the IVF treatment, it is a HUGE deal and fraught with so many hopes and doubts. It's natural you'll be feeling all these and more. I won't so don't be nervous, coz that's impossible - but pls try to be as little nervous as possible.
Thanks everyone. I am feeling a bit less nervous now... 2 days of the Suprefact injections and im ok with the whole needle thing. Toorrow i start Gonal-F and Luverif. I have 5 days to make my lists, get some food in the freezer for my hubby while im away and get ready to leave home for 2 to 3 weeks.
Feeling better... But thanks for letting me vent
Glad you have the first few days of injections under your belt! It's really not too bad after the initial weirdness of sticking yourself!
The whole process is overwhelming at times, it just is. I wonder if little kids can just sense that something is going on, too. Mine seem to act up just when I could use them to be little angels! Hope your son is doing better. I bet he'll have a blast with his cousins and you'll have time to relax a bit.
Good luck this week and keep us posted.
Hey, we can't get our three year old to sleep in his own bed by himself ever. I had crazy problems with delays in drugs too. So annoying, especially given their cost. I think staying with your family and their kids is going to be awesome... and it is coming up. I am just thinking of you and hoping for the best!!!