I hope and pray I get to carry this baby to term, but if not, I am determined to enjoy each and every precious day I get with him/her. Each day, I thank God for this opportunity to be pregnant and have life growing inside me.
Dear Ms Ultrasound,
I have a question that maybe you can help answer for me. On the night of January 31st, 2005 (I wrote it down because it was such a vivid dream), I had a beautiful dream.
March 2: I am still on air since the ultrasound. I have been getting paranoid thinking "maybe they were wrong"...so I've scoured every ultrasound gallery website I can find.
I know I didn't write much last week. We were busy with … well, I don't know what! My Aunt and cousin were down this weekend. My cousin has had a lot of problems this past year. It was good to see him yet I was a little uncomfortable.
Boy have I missed writing in here for over a week. Our vacation was nice. It was so much fun to see all the kids together. Boy was the noise level in that house LOUD! Three 2-year-olds and a 7-year-old in one room can give anybody a headache.
Can I go back to bed now? Please? I feel so horrible. I have another head cold. AF started 2 days ago, and I am just so tired. I am not doing so well since AF decided to arrive. It wanted to play tricks on me again.
CD 7 CY 2(since m/c) -- Well, another month started. Dh better be ready for a marathon! I have to keep saying, "this is the month, this is the month." God, I so want it to be this month. I have been doing a bit better emotionally the past few days.
I am hoping I am ovulating. I seem to have lost my indicator. I am no longer getting the incredibly sharp ovulation pains. Other indicators look promising this week, though. Jim and I have been trying the "every other day" routine.
Well, here I am, waiting yet again for my period (AF) to arrive. I am so anxious. I want AF to just show up already if she is going to show. I think I will wait another 3 days till I go to test. God, how I hope this is it.
Here I sit on New Years Eve. It is 11:20 pm, Emilee is asleep, Jim is at work and I am alone. What a depressing way to welcome in the New Year isn't it? I think out of the 6 New Years Jim and I have been together, we have spent 2 with each other.