ashlyn1109's picture

Sigh, I'm so frustrated with ttc though I know I shouldn't be. We've only been ttc for 5 months now and I'm already frustrated. I realize theres couples that have been ttc for years without any luck and I suppose I wouldnt be as frustrated if I didn't get pregnant almost instantly the first time. I got pregnant within 2 months of ttc, mind you I was on bc for 7 years (including 4 cycles of depo--which i stopped as soon as i was informed of the effects, living two hours away from my SO, and only actually "trying" 4 times!), it ended in a m/c and I haven't been able to get pregnant since.

What defines me as a mother

MichelleTheAuthor's picture

So I find myself wondering how many years will pass, before the anniversary date of losing the baby will not shock me. By now she'd be five, and looking forward to her fifth birthday...
I'm learning how to define myself as a mother now. It's no longer the innocent cheery version, that you find in the Sears catalogue, but it's also not the life of someone who 'mis-handled' their pregnancy.