i have never done this before. I'm Mariah Furtado, and my husband and i are newly weds. well........almost lol, he is waiting on permission from the military. anyways, this will be our first child, and we and now TTC.i have done tons of research but when it comes to actually getting pregnant my brain is all jumbled inside.
Okay, I'm new to "blogging" and might suck a little, because I'm not that great with putting my feelings into words and when I do it sometimes get out all wrong.
Well, I went to the doctor today. That was a big waste of time. All they did was take blood. I had SO many questions and not a single one got answered. They said they'll call me tomorrow and let me know what my HCG level is and they will go from there. One reading, unless it's seriously low, won't really tell them anything. Or maybe it'll be really high. HA. This is ridiculous. My boobs hurt so bad and I keep forgetting how sore they are and then I stretch or something and it hurts. Which sucks because it keeps reminding me that I'm having symptoms - and might not have a baby.
Ahhh, so here I am again. Writing on a blog because no one wants to hear me whine anymore. On the 1st of January, I had what I thought was implantation bleeding. I waited until the 5th to test and got a negative. I started my period on the 6th. My period usually lasts about 4 to 5 days, very heavy in the middle. Well, it lasted about that long but I had old blood for a long time afterwards. My BF decided we needed to do the BD, so we did, on Saturday the 14th. Monday, the 16th, I started to have a bit more coming out of me than I had been.
Well... I was just on here yesterday, spilling my guts. I decided to stop off at Rite Aid and buy some more pregnancy tests since my last one didn't get me a result. I took it - not pregnant. I was completely not ready for the swarm of emotions hitting me when I saw that. I started to cry immediately, then hate everyone, then get angry. All these other people get pregnant immediately following a chemical pregnancy, WHY haven't I? For that matter, why did I have a chemical pregnancy anyway, when everyone around me is pregnant? Why is this so hard for me?
Ok so I'm not 15 dpo and I'm 2 day's late. But I'm still getting negative pregnancy test. I'm new to trying part but my period is never late. The only two times in my life that it's been late I've been pregnant. I don't know what to think. I'm stressin big time because we only have a limited amout of time before deployment. Plus my birthday is in two weeks and I wanna know before then and before my husband goes into predeployment training.... I HATE HATE HATE waiting!
Well, I'm new here, but I really feel the need to write down all my feelings. I will start at the beginning (well, before the beginning of TTC and after the beginning of my life, so maybe "in the middle" would be better.) I got married after I graduated from college. I'm not sure why we got married. I think we had been together so long, that marriage was just the next step. It was never a great marriage. We didn't speak very much, I avoided him if I could. We had decided we did not want to have kids. One, because he had a disease that he could pass onto a baby.
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So the count down begins, only 5 more days til I get to start progesterone and then clomid, I couldn't be more excited and apprehensive about this journey. I have waited so long to have a child and now I feel guilty and scared, scared because I am a strong believer in the whole 2012 thing and guilty because my ex still has a lot of my heart and has just lost his mom who was also like a mom to me and he really needs me now and wants nothing more than for me to come back so he won't be alone. I was his first and only love and abandoned him for my childhood sweetheart.
I'm new to this site but not to trying to conceive, I have PCOS and loved the site I was on with the other women who were TTC with PCOS... but the site gave me hope and let me down all at the same time, I would feel hope when someone got lucky and became pregnant after years of trying but then I would feel like there was no hope when it came to those who tried everything and still had no luck.