What's a fetus party, you ask? Exactly that. A party for your fetus. With the clarity of today's expectant parents are more excited than ever to show off their pictures and videos of their coming bundles of joy.
Our story, is probably not too rare.
My husband and I were married 2 1/2 years ago and decided that we wouldn't wait to start a family. My mother was extremely fertile so I never thought that I would have any problems conceiving. After 6 months I began to feel nervous. After persuading my Doc. to give us the battery of tests that they usually make you wait a year for we were diagnosed with unexplained infertility.
Almost one year after our marriage we found that we were pregnant, and were over the moon. Unfortunately it was shortlived and at 6.5 weeks while on holiday I began to miscarry. I think I lost a large part of my heart that day. It took me a long time to get over it.
Over the next year, we tried chineese acupuncture which helped regulate my cycles and I took a mind body class which helped me get my emotions undercontrol. I began to meditate regularly listening to Jennifer Bloom's fertilty meditations www.anjionline.com and slowly came to a place of peace about our fertility journey.
I've had many thoughts over the past two years. I can't say how many times I've wished that the pregnancy test would just show positive. So many negatives, how hard would it be to have a positive! The month that I got pregnant after the first year, I knew I was pregnant before I checked the stick. My boobs were sore and I'd had funny aches in my tummy. I just new it, the test was just a confirmation.
In November I took a pregnancy test, not expecting any thing extraordinary and there it was...pregnant! I was totally suprised.
The next few days were long and painful, with every twinge I thought that I'd get a late period. I was terrified of loosing this one too. I booked an appointment with my Dr. but couldn't get in for a week. I couldn't imagine staying pregnant for an entire week! My fears were confirmed a few of days later when I felt that my boobs had got much less sore. I figured it was only time before I bled. I sat at work in my cubicle and couldn't stop crying. I had to excuse my self (via email so no one saw me) and went home.
I didn't start to bleed, but I did start to feel nauseus and my boobs got sore again. My Doc. ran some tests and said that my HCG was just fine and doubling on schedule. I was still pregnant.
I was really nervous about passing the 6.5 week mark that had been my miscarriage last time. Unfortunately it came over christmas surrounded by family. I was feeling really sick and would pretty much rather have been any where else as long as I could have been alone.
About a year ago I found out I was pregnant for the very first time. That morning I had told my husband that I thought I was pregnant and he just waved it off, not really believing me. To his defense I had thought this or that must be pregnancy for a little while before that. I had been so worried about getting pregnant before my wedding. However my wedding had just passed and i just knew that I was pregnant this time.
My Highschool life was a blur. an enjoyable and slightly too fast blur. I am the baby of my family so i walked in the rather large foot prints of my siblings. My sister Kate Is very pretty and very determined. if she wanted it she would work until she got it. Varsity Volley MVP and captain, choir star, and soccer allstar. along with student body president, homecomming queen AND prom queen. she was also a high honoroll student. our brother Will played football and was noticed by all the girls. he was like by all the teachers and basically owned the school. I didnt do so badly my self.
Well, I thought that I was through the worst of the morning sickness....but I have been proven wrong! The last few days have left me able to do very little except lie around, sleep and catch up on my xmas reading.
Feeling horribly guilty for my in-action but I'm still terribly happy to be pregnant even if it is tough right now. I'm reasoning that it won't last for ever, and at the very most I shouldn't be this sick for more than a few days, before things start to ease off.
I was talking to my hubby a couple of nights ago and I told him that basically, I was going to be neurotic and paranoid for the first 12 weeks of this pregnancy and that everyone would just have to accept that that is the way things are. He sounded really surprised "But why?" So now it was my turn to sound surprised (how could he not know why?!?!?) so there was a touch of sarcasm in my answer.
I found out I was pregnant 4 days ago. I assume I'm 5 weeks, but I won't see the doctor until next week. I don't know how common it is, but I am absolutely TERRIFIED of having a miscarriage. I work with a girl who's had 3 of them in the last 2 years and it absolutely terrifies me. Every time I go to the bathroom I am gripped with this horrible fear...what if there's blood?
So I took a test last week the day my period was due and it was negative...I held out for a week and retested. Drumroll! The two pink lines appeared and catapulted us into panic mode. We have an almost-6 month old, we just moved from Connecticut to Florida, our family lives three thousand miles away and only one of us is working at the moment. After the initial shock, we started to think rationally about how in the world we're going to do this.