As this is my first blog, I feel the need to give some background on our situation. My husband and I have been actively trying to conceive. We knew there would be some type of a challenge. At age 13 I started my period and it was regular for 9 mo. I then started my period and it lasted for 3 months straight, I was only a freshman in high school.
well today is march 21 2011 and my husband and i have been tring to have our second little one for over a year now. the first time we decided we wanted a child it took us a year and three rounds of clomid!
Today I feel hopeless. I can't help but to say poor me. What's wrong with me? WHy can't I have a beautiful baby as easy as everyone else? Yesterday someone dropped by to show me her 3 month old little girl. How could god do that to me when he knows that I'm struggling? It was like a slap in the face. THe worst part is that I'm a day late with no BFP.
It all started with Emilee getting sick mid September. Long story short, she ended up being hospitalized on September 28th. After all the stress that night, I found I was getting my period. It was kind of the straw that broke the camels back. I just lost it.
I can't remember the rest of the words to the song (to my blog title), but it's exactly how I feel when it comes to trying to have a baby. This is my first blog entry ever. I thought I would do this to get my feelings out there because I can't quite find a blog from someone who has gone through what I have. Maybe by doing this I will connect with someone who understands what I'm going through. All of the fertility blogs I have read are either by someone who has gone through far worse than I have, or someone who was infertile when I started reading, but is now blissfully pregnant.
It's amazing that I have spent most of my life trying NOT to get pregnant. I thought since my mom was one of thirteen kids and I'm one of five that my genetic chances of conceiving were pretty good. Last year I decided to go off of birth control and my period stopped coming as well. I am in the military and I deployed to Iraq in September of last year. Before the deployment I took birth control again because I was getting anthrax shots and was scared of getting pregnant and injuring my unborn child. I got my period just like any regular girl would.
The New Year brings New Hope. This years my husband and I are going to do everything to mike our dreams come true of having a baby. We have already started on our New Years Resolution. We need a surgery for I can try to conceive again. I had a tubal ligation after my daughter was born back in 1998 not knowing what my future would bring. Resolution number one. Save enough money to get my tubes reversed. Mike has just started a second job and our first deposit into savings should be this Wednesday. Resolution number two I have to lose weight or the doctor will not do the surgery.
To give a birth to a baby is a wonderful feeling. It’s like touching the heaven. A woman is completed when he gave a birth to a baby. Some time it is difficult to conceive due to many reasons. If this whole process goes naturally without any problem it’s a good achievement in itself. Most of the women’s don’t know about " How to get pregnantHow to get pregnant". There are ways to help the process along, though.
I've been trying to conceive for two years now. After visits to the fertility clinic for testing, everything seemed fine. Just no luck naturally. I'm 35 years old and I can feel my clock ticking BIG TIME! :)
Anyway, at the beginning of this month, we started our fertility injections and insemination. I have a few friends who have been going through infertility as well, so it was nice to have someone to talk to about what I was going through. Here is my experience within the last few weeks...
Monday March 8, 2010 - March 12 - Fertility injections