Ask the Doula

A Lie That I Have To Tell

I have been dying to let you know how much I love you. I have been dreaming to hold and hug you tight. I have been imagining you are my husband. I love you that's all I know. And I know you love me too.

If I could only bring the past back then I would really be glad to be a part of you. Remember when we watched the Korean Movie Millionaire's First Love? That was the first time I saw you cry. I was amazed how a huge guy like you could cry on a short love story. Then I realized you are capable being touched, being hurt, be in pain.

The Waiting Game:

I went off the pill because I couldn't afford it, got my period a couple of days after stopping the pill as usually happens once a month. The last day of that period was on March 7, 2011. It is now May 4, 2011 and I have still not gotten another period. A couple weeks into April my breasts got really sore especially my nipples and I had some light bleeding and TERRIBLE cramps. By light I mean barley anything just pinkish when I wiped. I thought for sure that was the start of my period.